PLEASE HELP (hocd)

I really have nowhere else to go, so I’ll try to seek help from this community.
I little background about me. I have always crushed on girls and been attracted to them and today I am happily married to my wife. About 10 years ago I started mastubating to crossdressing/trap hentai and have been doing it ever since.
Also about 9 years ago, I got into sissy hypno - which I completely quit 2 years ago.
Now fast forward. About 4 weeks ago I failed to get an erection with my wife (which have happens before, because of performance anxiety) so we just brushed it off. One week later I had a gay dream, and those two things combined resulted in - what I hope is - severe HOCD/SOOCD. I have been feeling horrible and having anxiety attack’s for the past three weeks. To make matters worse I have had 4 gay dreams the last week where I wake up at night and are having trouble falling again.
I am currently 15 into nofap, and this the reason for my post.
The last two days have been fantastic, no ocd whatsoever, but i just had a really gay dream, and actually felt aroused, right until I awoke, then the anxiety came back with a vengeance.
I dreamt I was dressed like a trap and was sucking a guy off. In the dream I even orgasmed. And I was enjoying the dream.
It was almost like a “live action” version of the crossdressing hentai that I am trying to quit.
Is this just a normal reaction for my brain to be doing, because I’m not supplying it with the dopamine it’s Used to?
I really love my wife and couldn’t imagine a life without her. I have never been attracted to men, but this ocd (which I hope it is) is really fucking with me. I hope some of you can help me to relax. I’ve read that dreams means absolutely nothing, and if you have hocd you tend to have gay dreams quite often, but I just can’t shake this latest dream off. Especially because I felt aroused in the dream.