PLEASE HELP ME IM NEARING THE END OF MY ROPE. Trigger warning! Sissy Hypno P

Rosh720

Rosh720

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recently after two relapses and a binge ago I let the sissy thoughts back in from sissy hypno, ts porn, and gay abuse porn I used to watch because I couldn’t get errections again. This is greatly affecting my progress and I can hear my real voice saying “I am a straight man” in my head but I can’t free it to be so. The girly, “I want to be dominated by men because I’m a cockslut” voice is all I can hear and I’m obsessing over it. Last time I let it go and had that dream (please go read that in my previous thread I beg you) and I was back to my real voice. now this sissy voice tells me it’s who I truly am and I know the difference because I can still hear my real voice. The reason i am having trouble letting go of it is because I’m scared if I ignore it Itll become the truth which I know isn’t true but I’m just terrified. I’m only 16 and miss my genuine urges I had for a few days, I’ve had two tests this week in advanced courses... which I am failing because of my obsession (which I know is my fault), and I have no where left to turn I can’t get rid of this voice. I’m also supposed to be hanging out with my girlfriend tomorrow for the first time in a month and I’m worried, although I usually find these thoughts go away when I’m with her I’m still worried. Anyone have a similar experience they could share for comfort? It would be greatly appreciated. Please I’m nearly at wits end scared I will have to live as a women and take it up the ass for life. Please excuse my language I try to keep it clean and respectful but I’m scared.
 
Hi @Rosh720 ! Well, I heard a good affirmation last night. "I would rather heal in impotence than continue having unhealthy sex." It was from an energy worker who had contracted negative energy, and the only way he could get aroused was through unhealthy means. So in order for the negative energy to leave him, he had to accept that he would be impotent for a while, while he healed.

It sounds like you don't really want to be doing this to yourself... You want to express your sexuality differently.

Here's an article with a possible explanation for this sort of thing:
https://stream.org/yes-childhood-sexual-abuse-often-contribute-homosexuality/

I was harmed sexually as a child and I think it led to compulsive behaviors of this nature that were out of alignment with my true orientation. When I began to realize this, I started healing from the compulsion, to harm myself in this way, too.
 
PMO addict said:
Hi @Rosh720 ! Well, I heard a good affirmation last night. "I would rather heal in impotence than continue having unhealthy sex." It was from an energy worker who had contracted negative energy, and the only way he could get aroused was through unhealthy means. So in order for the negative energy to leave him, he had to accept that he would be impotent for a while, while he healed.

It sounds like you don't really want to be doing this to yourself... You want to express your sexuality differently.

Here's an article with a possible explanation for this sort of thing:
https://stream.org/yes-childhood-sexual-abuse-often-contribute-homosexuality/

I was harmed sexually as a child and I think it led to compulsive behaviors of this nature that were out of alignment with my true orientation. When I began to realize this, I started healing from the compulsion, to harm myself in this way, too.
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Sorry to hear that brother thanks for the input you’ve always been really helpful. I’ll check out that link right now!
 
Rosh720 said:
Please I’m nearly at wits end scared I will have to live as a women and take it up the ass for life.
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16 years of age is scary enough without things like this to deal with. You need a plan and a support network. Do you have a plan?

How about you start listening to some positive motivations? There's a great speech by Arnold Schwarzenegger on youtube and plenty more. Start your days with reinforcing what you want from life. Every decision you make at this age affects the rest of your life so make every decision a good one. Your brain isn't even fully developed enough to cope with adult life so you can't do this alone. Is there a therapist at school? Someone you can reach out too?

You know what you are and what you want to be. It's the irrational mind of your brain seeking drugs (dopamine) that is doing the damage. Have a plan to battle it.
 
You're among friends here, Rosh720! You're going to get many different ideas and perspectives to help you work this situation out. Don't do anything rash or impulsive. Let the mind settle down during meditation and watch the breath twice a day. The sexual preference/gender identity issue is a complex and delicate one...make time to be with good, supporting friends and make time for quiet introspection.
 
Hey brother, obviously you've been brainwashed by the "hypnotic" videos and that's why you can't get out of your head the idea of being gay.
And obviously you are not gay, all of this crazy stuff that is happening inside your mind is only due to a external cause.
It comes from external factors, not from inside you.
So if you would have never watched that kind of porn which is pure poison you would never had this kind of thoughts.

Believe me, if you quit every kind of porn cold turkey you'll be healed.
If you want to succeed you should never stimulate yourself sexually, so NO EDGING, NEVER, even if you have an erection it should remain untouched, I know it sounds hard but once you get it it's really easy. If you edge once you are doomed, you must completely forget masturbation.

Then when you'll have a decent streak, you'll realize that all the weird fetishes including the feminization one have disappeared. They gradually disappear until they are just something funny and nonsensical from the past that you remember.
I thought that there was no cure for me because I felt that "I loved" those fetishes way too much. But in truth when you stop feeding the demons they end up starving until they die.

I hope that this message will help. If you need to talk more in depth feel free to send me a private message.

~ Poemandres
 
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Stop PMO'ing brother, all these sissy fetishes are the result of sexual conditioning(Please watch this video from a nofap youtuber:
I hope you've watched the video before continuing to read).
When you get to a streak of 2 weeks or so, all these weird attractions and fetishes start disappearing,believe me I went through this.They completely disappear after a longer streak.
Don't be bothered by these fetishes,they are temporarily affecting your sexuality.
There's light in the other end of the tunnel.You absolutely CAN get rid of it.Imagine all the greatness... hidden deep inside you but being obscured by porn.You are struggling with all these unnecessary problems, while you could be making history.Imagine yourself when you were younger,was this the life that little boy had been destined to,i dont think so.
Stay on nofap,UNTIL IT SLEEPS.Stay strong on your nofap journey while it washes you clean of all the dirt that stinks.
 
Rosh720 said:
Please I’m nearly at wits end scared I will have to live as a women and take it up the ass for life.
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People act according to their identities rather than what they really want. Your given identity towards yourself is sissy porn addict. Thus you act out and think those thoughts? But what do you want?

By the looks of things you want to be a straight man who doesn't use porn.
Ta-da! You are! Identity isn't set. Don't think of yourself as someone who is addicted to sP. You are now a straight man who doesn't use porn anymore.
 
Rosh720 said:
recently after two relapses and a binge ago I let the sissy thoughts back in from sissy hypno, ts porn, and gay abuse porn I used to watch because I couldn’t get errections again. This is greatly affecting my progress and I can hear my real voice saying “I am a straight man” in my head but I can’t free it to be so. The girly, “I want to be dominated by men because I’m a cockslut” voice is all I can hear and I’m obsessing over it. Last time I let it go and had that dream (please go read that in my previous thread I beg you) and I was back to my real voice. now this sissy voice tells me it’s who I truly am and I know the difference because I can still hear my real voice. The reason i am having trouble letting go of it is because I’m scared if I ignore it Itll become the truth which I know isn’t true but I’m just terrified. I’m only 16 and miss my genuine urges I had for a few days, I’ve had two tests this week in advanced courses... which I am failing because of my obsession (which I know is my fault), and I have no where left to turn I can’t get rid of this voice. I’m also supposed to be hanging out with my girlfriend tomorrow for the first time in a month and I’m worried, although I usually find these thoughts go away when I’m with her I’m still worried. Anyone have a similar experience they could share for comfort? It would be greatly appreciated. Please I’m nearly at wits end scared I will have to live as a women and take it up the ass for life. Please excuse my language I try to keep it clean and respectful but I’m scared.
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Hey I have been there whats worse for me is that I started cross dressing when I was 12 I would fantasies being dominated by men and feminized by other girls many years before I discovered sissy hypno I would mutter the typical stuff you see on sissy hypno. Which is weird because I was never exposed to internet until I was 16 or 17. Whats worse is because of how cute I look in the real life specially when I was kid people mistake me for a girl and called me little girl in grocery store and all. I got exposed to sissy hypno 4 years and obviously that made things worse. However, I still don't give up I am always in battle with it sometimes my sissy version wins sometimes my sissy version fails to take over. I have also learned through out my life that as long as I put up fight even if I lose its ok cause I put out the fight against it. You have no idea how many time I secretly shopped for dress and purged them over and over I think possibly more than 5 times I have thrown out a whole set of dresses wigs heels stocking panties and pantyhose. A lot people online have told me I was born this way and I should go full trans.But in the end, I would still fight it to the end until I go to my grave. At least you have girl friend which is great because I never had one which made the fight even worse for me. But here is the most important thing you are 16 and you think you have all the time in the world, I got news for you, "YOU DON'T" and sissy hypno takes so much time even without it dressing up as girl fully will take a lot of your time if you add the make ups and even shopping for it online not to mention the stress which is killer to your health that you would get every time you buy dresses because you don't want people to find out you are sissy. Your time can never be back no matter how powerful and rich you are. I say every time you get the urges just fap and think of women without watching porn. That way the poison is out of you and you can move on to more important stuff. Interestingly enough when you fap fully you don't want to go back to those dresses or sissy stuff until the urge comes back. So do it this way and do not watch any porn online specially the hypno cause it will get harder later you will be triggered by just a dress in a shop or picture of a dress in online shops. Hope this helps wish you all the best.
 
You’re worth more than this addiction! You’re not the only guy on here to have many of these problems!

I’m really proud at 16 you’ve identified these issues which many have had for years before realising the damage done!

As hard as it seems now you can beat this addiction. Starve the negative thoughts of time and attention. Block adult websites on all devices. Limit internet time. Avoid internet time alone. See your girlfriend and chill out with her brother

You’re stronger and wiser the most my friend. Honestly you have the beating of this
 
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