Please help me

It's been over a year since I found NoFap but I've never been dedicated to its cause and I've constantly relapsed and failed so much at this point that most people given up hope on me including a few of my former accountability partners. My lack of accountability and responsibility for my actions cause a lot of issues with Nofap. For one it's hard to even keep a day going strong without relapsing, and I constantly forget that there's help, something to do, meditate anything but fap. It's like I'm so focused, so driven just to jerk off and watch porn that I forget I'm even doing NoFap. And it's because of this I have never officially finished a week streak. Recently tough, I've been going to the gym and it's been helping a lot with my confidence with girls and shit but I still continue to fap every couple of days. It's progressively gotten worse since the start of the summer, because of all the free time and such. It's really hard to do this and honestly I have my doubts I even can but I've been irresponsible and unmotivated for a long time and that motivation and discipline is starting to come back as I go to the gym every day or every other day and it's a great feeling when you're not just sitting in your room doing nothing feeling pity for myself. Idk anymore what to do