Please Help Need someone to talk

I am 26 years old male soon to turn 27 year old in two months.I am from India I have been jobless for the last 2 years. I have a competitive exams lined up in about 18 days where which can change my situation and help me get a good secured job. But I cant concentrate I feel I have wasted and not used 6 months of time efficiently for this exam even though I tried I made changes like waking up very early in the morning Intermittent fasting, cut sugar from diet still I feel I inadequate and I have this regret of not working efficiently enough and things have piled up and I feel overwhelmed by it The more I think of it the more shitty I feel of letting myself and my loved ones down and it makes me fap. I am starting to hate myself. I blocked everything through k9 in PC as well as in android. But I keep going to youtube and search stuff like twerking and ejaculate. Its not like I have not tried before this i got into streaks of 25 and 20 days and a few 8 or 9 day streaks. I feel lonely now I have a long distance GF whom I love very much but now I hardly have any friends and I have to sit all day with my computer to study. and this feeling of inadequacy and doubt is crippling me and I am not able to focus. with every fap session I fall deeper into this abyss. I feel guilt when I look in my parents face and feel I am letting them down I have no other addiction other than this. Please somebody show me the way to get out of this rut.

 

We all have problems mate don't we ?

 

I hope you get all the strength to deal with your problems