Whenever I masturbate, I hardly ever think about women I know currently in my life. I always think about women I don't know anymore .... or women that I have seen but don't know at all. In the past, whenever I had a girlfriend or was getting on very well with a girl ( very rarely ) - I never thought about her when I masturbated, it felt somehow disrespectful. It was like I was ruining some perfect idea of purity and love. It seems weird to not masturbate to women you have a chance of having sex with, and to think about random other women instead. Be great to hear from anyone else who does this, or who can shine some light. Many thanks.