PM side effects

As a person who's been fighting with PM for years I think it is worthwhile to share my experience with other rebooters! Though it is my first day of reboot process I have left MO for long periods and then again returned. I haven't spent so much time on porn maybe 1 hour or less once a week or every few weeks depending on my job and duties. I thought that light use of porn does not have serious and long-term negative effects! But I was wrong! Over years the way my brain manages Sex, Love, and relationships changed! It is exactly the same process you find on website articles about mind rewiring! Over time my brain began to consider PM as an easier and instant replacement for sex and relationship! and This was not the End! I gradually lost my interest in other hobbies and activities. PM was replacing almost everything I had in my life, though not completely!
One factor that really came to my help and also helped me find this website is my attitude toward reading. Seeing the negative effects of PM on almost every aspect my life made me look for where the problem came from. Another factor is my involvement in Yoga which is a highly effective exercise that benefits body and mind.
Porn has been a major problem in my life but somehow I have managed to find my way through hardships that it creates. My efficiency has been reduced but never came to zero as I was aware of it. I pushed my self hard and continued my education in College, studied English and German and joined many other activities with more or less positive results. The Main factor in my advancements despite porn-related problems is that I never lost faith in my self. I did not know that porn is such a great danger to my mental health but I had realized it is something I do not really need! I always believed that one day or another PM will end. I believe that human beings have and infinite ability to solve their problems no matter how hard and deep-rooted they are!
Now I guess it is a good idea to discuss some of the negative effects of the PM I have experienced:

1. Mental disorganization and as a result difficulty in concentration.
2. Difficulty in understanding and communicating with girls. Girls are very meticulous in their interaction with guys. Many girls come to my life and leave because they find out I have problems in understanding and interacting with them and I would say this is due to PM. Ignoring girls that show interest!
3. Lower academic and professional efficiency which would have been much better without the PM.
4. The baseless feeling of loneliness and isolation and depression.
5. Leaving projects unfinished! I have managed to work on this very well but it continues to exist!
6. Emotional and sexual dissatisfaction with my relationships due to the wrong expectations that come from porn!
7. Social Anxiety and losing interest in interacting with people
8. Impusive actions
9. Anger, Anxiety, and over sensetivity!
10. Feeling empty and not in the mood
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What is interesting is that during periods which NoFap calls rebooting, the mentioned effects are weaken or even disapear! I have realized that PM addiction just like other addictions such as drugs and alchohol is a result of lack of positive interaction with people and understanding of oneself. So This is not actually addiction but lack of positive interaction!

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Well, I have recently realized that this is an addiction from which many of my problems stem from. The actual reason I came here is to find viable solutions to this problem. I have seen that interacting with people and socializing helps a great deal. That`s why I say this is, in fact, a lack of interaction and connection. I am working on it! But it I need help. Do you have an idea what to do?