When I look at my addictions that I ever suffered from, without exception all of them started in my early youth (13-18 years old). I'm 30 now. I wonder: Do PMO addicts have a certain brain pattern that shows vulnerability to addictive behaviour in general? Or is it all just a coincidence? My addictions so far at starting age: PMO – 13/14 years Alcohol – 14/15 years Online news addiction – 16 years Gambling – 18 years I quit gambling after a few years. I quit online news just 6 months ago. So glad. I'm still heavily addicted to PMO and alcohol. Never overcame them so far. Trying hard. I tried weed in my youth too, but quickly refrained from it because it a) gave me a heart race each and every time and b) made me the horniest and most prone to PMO ever in my life. I didn't touch it since more than 10 years. I never touched illegal drugs either, because I always worried they would fuckin kill me quickly. If I start with that shit for just one single time, I know for a fact I wouldn't be able to stop. Now when I look at this, it seems like a pattern to me. It seems to me I have a brain that is drawn to addiction since forever. I have no external reason to turn to any drugs and addictions. Perfect childhood and everything. Constantly I ask myself: "Why did I end up where I am now?". "Why do I live this miserable life even though I had all the financial and emotional resources to live a perfectly normal life?". It makes no sense at all. And still 50% of my life is filled with addictions. I wonder, is there any scientific research/backup that explains why people are so drawn to addictions while others are not? Do PMO addicts have a brain pattern that shows vulnerability to addictive behaviour in general? Or is it all just a coincidence?