PMO Destroyed my Health - Please read

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by xxxplatinium, Dec 2, 2018.

How many years have you masturbated? And how often?

Poll closed Dec 2, 2019.
  1. Daily

    80.0%
  2. Every other day

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  3. Bi weekly

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  1. xxxplatinium

    xxxplatinium Fapstronaut

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    Hello

    I remember it was 6th grade so it was around 2005 I started masturbstion get. Then I started masturbating maybe once twice a week. I remember the feeling at the first time and then as It continued it became an addiction in its purest sense.

    Regret and repeat.

    Ten came high school, big dissapointment + bullies and I became anti social. Since finishing high school I have masturbated daily for 6-7 years to the present day. So I have pretty much masturbated almost daily for 10-12 years. That's about 4000 masturbations.

    In 2015 I was diagnosed with hashimoto thyroiditis. At the time I naively blamed it to my sedentary lifestyle, as I work from home on computers. I took some med for some time.

    In 2017 I meet a beautiful girl, the first girl in my life at 24-25. I was like crazy. I noticed I had difficulty ejaculating, years of hand action had ruined my senses. I needed more than 40 minutes of action to finally ejaculate. It was not a good sign, but I also was nervous.

    Then I did the worst thing I have ever done. Unprotected anal with her, more than a couple times. After 7-8 months, I made a test because I had pain in head of my penis and I found: enterococcus faecalis + mycoplsma Hominis which gave me prostatitis.

    Porn had corrupted my brain, into thinking I could have anal sex without protection(heck i didnt even like it compared to vaginal, but i still did it because porn fucked me up).

    Amongst the guilt feeling to having caused her and myself an infection, I learn that the infection cannot be cured. I have tried about 1.4 months of different antibiotics, cipro, avelox, augmentin. Only to make things worse. It has ruined my life.


    1. Masturbation is a slow death. It depletes the body from vital nutrients, google what sperm/semen contain and see for yourself. It destroys your immunity day by day. It's like cutting forest at a higher pace than its able to generate.


    2. Porn ruins your mind, creates dirty thoughts, perverse thoughts, I was ready to lick her ass, she stopped me. I wanted to make a threesome with her, again what was j thinking?

    3. Hashimoto thyroiditis is a terrible autoimune disease, very rare in males and they say its rarer in males because testosterone has a protective function or the thyroid. Get the connection? Masturbation > constantly low testosterone > Autoimune disease.

    Also depleting your body from vital nutrients, like zinc, selenium etc, ruins your gut, and the gut compromises about 80% of the imune system, all the diseases start from the gut, a corrupt gut will ruin your health. Also because of this I believe I needed to remove my appendix in 2009 (corrupt gut)

    4. Prostatitis is also a terrible disease as It's not curable and very painful. It compromised my sperm and I won't be able to have children because of the infections. Search infertility bacteria on Google. I have all sorts of symptoms, balls are shrinking, painful ejaculations, clogged sperm, reduced sperm, heat sensation and dull pain in testicle and balls and what not.

    This is what porn has done to me, and other people around me. I hate my self every day. If I was to return back time. I would have never masturbated, not a single day.

    I'm 26 now and I feel like 80. With 2 terrible unreversible diseases and it's only the start.

    I have started thinking about suicide.

    This is my story.
    Please if you read, try to reply with your experience, or opinion about what I said. I may be too deeply depressed to see everything so dark.
     
    Last edited: Dec 4, 2018
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  2. Hi @xxxplatinium , I am sorry for the hard times you are going through.
    We trend to hide behind PMO to shield against things in life that harms us. I was sexually abused when I was 10 by three older classmates at school, and hide my trauma in PMO addiction, random sex, hook ups and escorts.
    The question here is : do you want to become a victim, lower your arms and do not fight! Or you want to try to recover your life and make the best out of it?

    It is a big step if you can understand what is triggering your urges, because this will allow you to be awake and kill those urges as soon as they appear.

    I recommend you to create your own "Emergency Toolbox" with readings that can be handy to read when you start feeling urges to screw up.
    I can share this post with you with my own Emergency Toolbox, it helped me a lot during the first few months, i had them in my cell and read them every time I started falling down:

    https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.p...y-first-320-days-of-reboot.62938/#post-473978

    I wrote some tips in this post that perhaps will help you too:

    http://NoFap.com/forum/index.php?threads/tips-that-helped-me-to-start-my-reboot.46617/#post-330318
    You can watch some interesting videos which are also very helpful in this post:
    http://nofap.com/forum/index.php?th...t-help-me-a-lot-during-my-reboot.39774/page-2

    I also suggest you to read "Breaking the Cycle" by George Collins, it is a must-read if you are serious about getting rid of this addiction.
    To get more focus and feel happier with life I recommend you to start doing meditation.. I have been using an App called Headspace for the last two months which is great if you have never meditated before. The first 10 sessions are free if you want to give a try. I used to feel a bit depressed or feeling without energy to start new projects in my life, and meditation has helped me a lot with this.

    Last but not least, I would strongly recommend you to take the NoFap Academy course if you can afford it. The course is great but the best value are the weekly video calls with @alexander (the creator of NoFap and NoFap Academy) and Mark Queppet, where you can chat with them in real life and listen to other guys's stories and problems too.

    I hope that all this helps you to fight this shitty addiction.
    Let's keep on fighting

    Fercho
     
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    Hey buddy.

    Hashimoto's is the only incurable disease there. Both enterococcus and mycoplasma infections are fully curable although your hypothyroidism will exacerbate their effects and duration.

    And many TSH regulates exist to treat hashimoto's thyroiditis making it almost inconsequential, although you may suffer a goitre or weight gain from time to time. :) it is NOT a death sentence at all pal!

    Prostatitis is curable as well, although the chronic form may recur occasionally.

    It's not nearly as bad as you think bro.
     
  4. xxxplatinium

    xxxplatinium Fapstronaut

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    Hello
    Thanks for reply

    Have you masturbated daily for so long? Do you suffer from either one? Hashimoto or prostatitis?
     
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    Who're you referring to buddy? Me or the guy before?
     
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    You my friend. You can search enterococcus faecalis and see it's impossible to eradicate from urethra prostate. It's a terrible infection :(
    It all was caused by masturbstion and porn which lead me to have both Hashimoto and prostatitis. I'm so fcked up :(
     
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    Hey hey no man.

    Enterococcus is a highly resistant bacteria which has largely become immune to all sorts of medication but symptomatic treatment is still always a valid treatment.

    Am i right in assuming that your prostatitis is caused by the enterococcus infection? Because if it is, it's basically 1 ailment and not two :)

    If you quit PMO, i can assure you that you will see a phenomenal improvement in your thyroid function tests. Promise.


    I started nofap late in November last year. Actually, i have spent just a little over 1 year here and in my last 365 days I have managed to spend 232 free of PMO. I want to improve on that this year :)

    I started PMO at the age of 13 and masturbated once daily till the age of 17, when i realised this was wrong. That's what lead me to this site and why I'm here today :)
     
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  8. xxxplatinium

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    Yes enterococcus is a known cause of prostatitis
    Also mycoplasma is a known cause of infection
    Masturbation drains your energy and makes you have eretction problems

    I had trouble keeping eretction

    The problems with Hashimoto is that it constantly destroys the thyroid

    So no matter the tests thyroid is being destroyed little by little :(
     
  9. xxxplatinium

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    Also how tall are you?
     
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    Well, in a way, congratulations: you have 1 problem here; not 2- enterococcus induced prostatitis.


    Indeed. Mycoplasma is one of the smallest living organisms known to man so far ranging from 3 to 5 micrometers.


    Yeah, that's right. Personally, the only degrading effects of MO i have experienced are:
    1. Moderate memory loss
    2. Fluctuating emotions (triggered by nofap actually but it's sort of a benefit because I was numb to emotions before)
    3. Lack of focus/ attention/ concentration.

    So far, my memory has improved qjite a bit and my focus is MUCH better than before. I'm also learning hownto deal with a vast array of emotions too.

    Your body constantly heals too buddy. With nofap, you have a good chance of turning the rate of recovery in your favour :)

    Haven't measured my height in around a year actually haha but i'm sure i'm 5'9" or 5'10".
     
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  11. xxxplatinium

    xxxplatinium Fapstronaut

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    Yes masturbsting ar young age makes you shorter too

    With all due respect buddy
    I thank you for replies but you're giving no more information than some simple google searches
     
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    You haven't asked me a single question so far :confused: (except my height)
    Everything i've said up until now is to try to relieve the state of depression you're in.
    What sort of reply were you expecting? :rolleyes:
     
  13. xxxplatinium

    xxxplatinium Fapstronaut

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    I'm depressed
    But I wanted to warn others
    Don't mastuebate or you wil end up like me
    Hashimoto and prostatitis are terrible and not as easy as you make them look that's what I meant to say
     
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    The title says "please help" bro. That's why i offered that information haha
     
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  15. xxxplatinium

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    Sorry if it came out the wrong way
    I appreciate your advice but for anyone reading the thread you make it to easy
    Like my disease is something to be taken lightly
     

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