Yes, but hopeful that the P is the problem, with M having secondary consequences like the "hurry up and O" effects or fantasy desires vs reality. Not really struggling to look atvporn, which iscodd . I find myself wandering in thoughts that could ok ead to M but so far I've controlled it. Day 12 in the books!
Not that I'm trying to argue, but consider this... God HAS given you EVERYTHING you need to succeed at this. How you apply it, and how you let yourself off track is on you. The devil tempts, and we strumble, sometimes even fall down. Don't give in to temptation, but don't ask for what you've already got inside yourself. Knowledge. Desire. Support. A reason. A plan. If you have a few of these 5, you're on your way.
Hello, everyone! This is my first post in the community. I'm very glad I made the decision to sign up a few days ago, and also to finally set my goals here in writting. I'm 35, I live in Barcelona, I've been addicted to porn and masturbation for a long long time, although managed to stay away from both through several good periods in my life. Now since last August I've been having a rough patch, no doubt the worse depression in my life to date, and I relapsed hard since some months ago, which I feel very sorry for, even more because I have been very interested in Tantra and any kind of Devotional way of living Sexuality, and now it hurts me very much to see I've lost the healthy connection and control of my sexual energy I remember having. And it's not the only addiction I have fallen back to either. I also smoke way way much more weed than I believe would be healthy or positive in any way for me, and spend most of my time watching videos in internet, mostly TV series and conspiracy theories about the matrix and such. Which, by the way, in combination with my abuse of highly entheogenic substances in last years, has all my nervous system very unstable. Phew, sorry, there it is, I confessed... I really don't have any close friend who I can talk all this openly with so it is very soothing to have someone to share it with even if nobody ends up reading it. At least it made me open up and put it out there. So thank you a lot for the opportunity. So starting some days ago I'm going now for the 90 days without porn nor masturbation. If all goes well I'll try to address my other addictions as soon as I start to feel a little better about myself after being able to carry on controlling this one. I think today's the fifth one and it's already having an effect, I have kind of a withdrawal feeling, anxiety growing up. But I know it's gonna be so good to go through this, I need it, and I feel confident I will make it. Thanks and courage to you all!
I could not resist and had two PMO violations today. Today I have vowed to pass next 240 days without PMO
Still in. Naps, walks, and workouts are a great help when I start feeling like fapping. I also find that I'm drawn to going outside more often, which is good since the weather has been fairly mild here.
12 clean days, today is 13, but only midday....lots to do today to keep myself busy though... Everyday I wake up feeling better and alert, realising life is so much better without P..... Keep going everyone
I haven't posted in 2 days. I'm still in just got busy, which is kind of a good thing. Too busy for porn
Still in and feeling great. I don't ever want to go back, so after May I'm just gonna keep going until I've left this so far behind that I can't see it when I look back.
ByeByeManuela, I am reading, I am listening. Well done, well said, well ‘confessed’; you clearly want connection, soul and health in your life, clearly you want to feel balanced and in control, you are taking the right steps. Stay the distance with your PMO goal. RE. THC, Things like weed can be turned into medicine if treated properly. If used too much or incorrectly, without respect for its potency, it can make one sick and in need of a different medicine, one you would otherwise not need to have been taking. Take medicine for health, let it be a health promoting behaviour and let your choices be in balance, and don’t let otherwise good ‘medicine’ become toxic poison. Only you can make the call that discernes the difference. Take care and all the best with the 90 day goal my friend. Chali
I want to like your comment twice it’s so good, but I can’t, so I just had to comment; great comment, great comment. “I'm just gonna keep going until I've left this so far behind that I can't see it when I look back.” love that!
