PMO'd last night, reset my tracker, feel horrible today.

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by slipsonic, Feb 25, 2014.

  1. slipsonic

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    I had a pretty good run of 25 days until yesterday, I talked myself into pmoing. Woke up today in a really bad mood, depressed, down on myself, hate my job today, I saw my girlfriend and was kinda snippy with her which made me feel worse after the fact. Is this how I always felt before? It seems like an unpleasantly familiar feeling.
    I can't wait till I'm 5 or 6 days in again so I can feel like I have for the past 20 days. Every time I feel an urge to PMO I'm gonna think about how crappy I felt afterwards.
    Just need a little encouragement from you awesome people here to get through this stage! Thanks.
     
  2. Anki

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    Hi friend,
    Just remember its normal to relapse, I can understand your pain when you keep away from it for a month or a more and then you just someday relapse, I relapsed today and I did on 22nd too, I broke my record for 29 days (from 23Jan - 22 Feb) and It made me very sad, but then I thought its not days that make you count your strength but your inner strength your willingness, I am a little sad too but I know I cannot correct the past but what I can correct or make happy is my future. I once read a post that if you relapse after a long then don't think that you landed where you started in that big dark hole !! Our mind is rewired to PMO but these many days when kept away from it has done you good so don't think that it was all useless. Start Fresh again with more determination. Hope it helps. Sorry if any mistakes.
     
  3. slipsonic

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    Hey thanks man, that means a lot to me :)
    Your right about seeing what I have accomplished and not worrying about the relapse. I made it 25 DAYS!! That's 20 days longer than my previous record. I know I can go even longer this time, and I can see the benefits to my relationship with my girlfriend as well, although I was a little mean today. I called my girlfriend and apologized tonight too, she said it wasn't a big deal and she could tell I was having a bad day, but she loves me. That made me feel a lot better. Thanks for the kind words, if we keep on trying we will get better and better at this. :)
     
  4. alexs

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    dont worry man ....u lasted 25 days...that itself shows that u are good at this..i hope i can make it to 25 days....i set my counter to 7 actually..lack of confidence
     
  5. Masquerade

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    hmm..I think 1st of all we should only keep our counter for small numbers and gradually increase it so that we will be more confident.
     
  6. slipsonic

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    Yeah, that does sound like a good approach. That way we can have victories and gain confidence by completing our goals, instead of feeling like defeat if a high number of days is unattainable at the current time.
    I'm not sure why I went for 90 days on my first try, I tend to go a little overboard on some things. Lol

    Alexs, if I can make it to 25 days I know you can too. You're halfway to your goal of 7 so that's awesome! :)

    Thanks for the comments guys, I feel a lot better now. Tomorrow will be day 2! :)
     
  7. Cons: you feel like shit today. Tired, irritable and depressed

    Pros: you've had a taste of true confidence. A taste of what genuinely driven, successful people feel. And if you're like me it only strengthens your resolve.
     
  8. Luke1984

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    My first try was 21 days earlier this year. That's the longest I've ever gone! Before I joined this site, I had relapsed around 100 times the last few years. I couldn't even make 3 days then. When I decided to see how far I could go earlier this year, I remember I felt pretty good from days 8 till 21 and once I'd relapse it was like falling off a cliff. I would start over and feel like shit the first few days and need lots of sleep.

    Stay strong man.
     
  9. theonlyoption

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    You've got this man. Keep up the good work.
     
  10. the7RAYS

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    Stay strong, you have accomplished a great thing for yourself
    Keep it one day at a time

    I went 17 days without MO for the first time in my life
    I relapsed yesterday
    I do feel it has strengthened my resolve as has been posted in this thread
    Whether it's because I'm stubborn or not, I don't know, but I'm gonna reset for 90
    Where do u get those toolbars anyway?
     

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