Porn Addict first real attempt to Break the cycle, join me in a reboot

Hi Guys!

A little bit about me and why i'm here, tl;dr at the bottom.

I am a 21yr Student who for most of maturity has been an avid gamer, pornographic enthusiast, obese lazy individual. Since completing high school i made drastic changes to my persona; i gave up gaming, ate healthier, worked hard both physically and mentally at the Gym and during my studies. While i saw improvements in both grades and physical health my social health was pure trash.

At the beginning of this year 2016 i saw a near complete relapse into gaming, gorging and giving up. My studies were put on hold (gap year) and i could no longer hold myself in public. After many months of nothing, in August i finally started to make another attempt at change. But while i was correcting the symptoms, i considered perhaps i hadn't found the cause.

I am a porn addict. I have been hooked ever since i received my first laptop where i could surf the web in my room at night. I have been reluctant to ever consider it a problem because it just felt so good, and all credible science on Masturbation i had studied growing up gave it an A for positive benefits. But that was straight masturbation,

Porn Addiction is entirely left of center.​

(text is to the right but you get the idea). During my late adolescent when they were first publicly debating the sexual dysfunctions that accompanied porn addiction (erectile dysfunction, disinterest in real sex ect..) i thought to myself "i'll just remain single"; in hindsight this should have been an immediate red flag. Recently i have taken an interest in recent studies on porn addiction to overall mood and without getting into all the deep jargon i'll just say it fit me to a tee. So in October i tried a nofap alone experiment and found a month alone difficult.

One more fact about me, i am an introvert. It's a common buzzword i know but i use it just to paint a basic picture of me. To that end i don't often participate in forums, and a long term deflated mood (most likely due to porn addiction) may be the reason. To that end this is one of the few times i've put myself out there to a wider audience's scrutiny so forgive me if i seam odd.

Finally what does all of it mean? I want to do more than attempt noFap, i want to exceed it's 90 day challenge and i need help. I'm not looking for a support group, i don't want to be metaphorically carried over the finish line, i want to engage with like minded people trapped in the same cycle of porn high and day lows. I believe together we as a team can complete the 90 day challenge and break away from pornography all together, as is the purpose of NoFap. I will be posting often to keep up with everyone. I look forward to working with you all!

Tl;dr: introverted porn addict starting 90 day challenge. Hoping others will join me! also posted the same spiel on my profile..

Thankyou for taking the time to read my post! I really appreciate it.

Hermit.

PS: send me a message about anything anytime, always up for a conversation