Porn addiction has escalated me and ruined my attraction system

What you've experienced is nothing that a lot of guys on this site haven't gone through. Classic escalation. It starts vanilla and then ends up in things you would never have picture yourself looking at, things that go against who you know yourself to be. Can you get your "true sexuality" back? Of course. The things we seek for entertainment can really mess with our minds, but you're on the right site. If you've been reading through all the experiences on this site, then I think you already know what to do: reboot. And it all starts with getting rid of the source of your problems: porn.

Keep reading through the threads, comment, journal...take advantage of it all.

Best of luck to you.

 

This sounds a little bit like my story, except I acted out on my P fetishes, and I unfortunately “experimented” with my sexuality with my friend of the same sex. He invaded my digital privacy (looked through my phone when I was sleeping), and then “broke it” to me. He asked about my porn viewing (he is/was unaware that it was an escalating habit), and eventually, he asked me about my sexuality. That led to swapping oral sex. Afterwords I felt super ashamed/guilty, because I’m acting out against my porn fetishes, I upped the ante. Imagine escalating your P use to the point of reality. I now stopped talking to this friend, but he doesn’t seem know that. I’ve been slowly trying to remove myself from that aspect, and in the meantime I’ve been running around in circles with my head cut off trying to quit/get help for my addiction. I’ve become very depressed, but I’ve always been good at hiding my hardships because I was brought up to “just keep swimming”. But obviously, if you swim for too long, you stop swimming, and in my case, I’ve started to sink.

 

most of us have gone through this, over time pornography makes you escalate because the brain is looking for more and more dopamine, and this dopamine the brain gets through more and more violent and deviant content. To get rid of these fetishes and fantasies you have to stop watching porn and masturbating. I can't tell you a period of time in which to stop watching porn, but this period depends on how long you started watching porn and masturbating

 

Same here with u your story is basically my story smh started from young not many friends etc porn led on to a lot it’s crazy watched all kinds of porn I’m disgusted of now that it ruined me praying for healing for everyone that struggle with this

 

This has not been my experience. When I used to watch porn of course I escalated, but not on that direction.

Remember "everything is possible".

Don't give up.