Porn Addiction relating to Career Dilemma(Read OP)

After high school I chose telecommunications as my specialization, took admission in a college that is a bit far from home. I was living in a hostel and my overwhelming anxiety, homesickness and depression due to my addiction led me into a total mess. Eventually I left college after first semester. Things have gotten worse after that because I am not sure what I should do with my life but I eventually I found something that I could do about and that was becoming an artist for comics. I even took admission in a private college for graphic design.
Honestly I really lacked creativity and imagination but I was still enthusiastic and I didn't really thought about what I else I should do with my life. After a year or so my aspiration tumbled apart and my overwhelming addiction and escapism from reaility started my life of depression and anxiety in college. My grades were average and other students are doing wonders with their grades. The constant mood swings, anxiety and depression has created a self image of shame, isolation and humiliation among my classmates. The more I get depressed, the more I started to find and even spend money on porn and even prostitutes to escape from reality. I realized I have crossed a line and one thing to led to other to join nofap.
But what I wanted to say in this post is that after a year with nofap, I am starting to realize that my decision choosing of becoming comic artist was a half responsible for porn addiction. I used to draw nude figures of women and sex from fantasies and art manipulated my career rather my compassion and now I am in jeopardy. I have decided to choose a different course from the specialization of graphic design for becoming user researcher. Honestly I didnt have any other choice and I am not really interested in this course.
But since my ill judgement towards this is influenced with addiction, I am confused and bewildered towards having decision. Thing is that I haven't gave a damn about my future for earning money and having a independent life. My brain fog and the escapism has anything remotely that profoundly. I just wanted to shared to it because my life has been a mess. Please forgive my english isnt good and it isn't my first language.

I have been keeping up this to myself bc I have kept myself in belief that porn doesn't affect my career when I started nofap about a year ago since 6th June 2020. But gradually with all the things that I have learned about brain fog, mental energy, fantasies changed my perspective about this and I am not sure I have made improvement. I have done streaks as high as 45 to 30 or 20 but I haven't got past that.