Porn Addiction? Yes! ED? No!

So basically I'm 22 turning 23 this coming month and I have been watching porn since I was like 14. I have been that on and off type so my addiction only got stronger when I was around 18 when I lost the first girl I truly loved. Long story short..


I have never had problems with women but after my break up with the girl I started being depressed and that ruined my confidence which I have been regaining lately. I have no problem with approaching women and getting the numbers I'm basically back in that section. I'm the alpha male again like li used to be as a teenager. My problem is my sex addiction and thats where PMO comes in, porn has made me a pervert basically and I hate that. I respect women but I hate seeing a beautiful girl with a hot body and thinking of f###@g her. I was never that way before porn. I used to admire a girls eyes, smile and personality but all has changed so I'm trying to win that back I'm trying to tighten my confidence. Porn is bad fellas, no lie I just wish someone had told me from the day i discovered it.

The other thing is... I fxkn try by all means to avoid sex unless its with a women I trust coz I can't stay hard when trying to slip a condom on. It's either raw or nothing at all so i choose nothing. I can't tell u how many times I tried to have sex with a condom including recently and my Johnny drops dead inside and i try to convince myself not to pull the condom out and go raw. luckily I escaped these situations of embarrassment before the girl would notice by being disturb by someone or something then we would totally stop. So I promised I'll stay away from booty for the next 3 months to at least do my 90 day plus eternity reboot.


It's good to be in a place where we men arent rules by society and being prevented on sharing our feelings with other man. It's my 13th day, its slow and depressing coz I have a girl who wants to bang the hell outta me but then I wanna stay away from sex for the next 3 months so since I'm winning manipulating her ill definitely have her waiting till then


But well again thanks for the posts sent from all of you, whether addiction related or personal matters not related they all motivation. You cant give in to porn be the alpha male

 

Point proven. Alpha male is not necessarily bwt having power over others. Its about having power over your own life in my opinion.


And Yeah I wanted to correct the whole subject thing but i couldn't.