Porn has screwed me up

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by C12345, Jun 23, 2019.

  1. C12345

    C12345 Fapstronaut

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    I never noticed until i stopped. But now im starting to notice how screwed up porn made my brain. All of the porn induced mental anguish I'm feeling now I always felt, but I covered it up with porn. Pretty much, porn helped me deal with the problems that IT caused. Fuck porn. Anyone else feel like this?
     
  2. uiop2

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    When you're in the middle of your addiction and will to quit it seems like you're being too drastic, that maybe you can see things under another point of view instead of cutting them out of your life completely... everything looks like a good reason to keep stucking in the cycle, that you are not worth it but that's just addiction talking. After a few days sober you start looking at it all differently but it's not a joke going through this phase here.
     
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  3. Step-One

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    It really does mess with your head. I feel like I can think clearly when I'm not using it for awhile.
     
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  4. Helpless Yet Hopeful

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    Yeah, I just recently really started putting in the effort to stop and I'm amazed at how many times I'm thinking about it during the day. It's a path I've taken so many times that it feels like I can't spend a moment without it on my mind, especially when I've been away from it for a while.

    It has always been the way I cope, and I'm dreading the first time I have to deal with serious stress in my life now that I'm really trying. Failure always seems so close at hand. I'm on this site right now because I'm home alone with my computer. I feel like such an idiot that I can't just make this problem go away, but so grateful something like NoFap exists to help me along the road. Porn is the worst.
     
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  5. uiop2

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    Don't feel an idiot for that, if it would be that simple alcoholists/drug addicts and so on wouldn't even exist cause you could just stop doing it but it's not how it works unfortunately...
     
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  6. Helpless Yet Hopeful

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    Thanks, that's very true.
     
  7. Step-One

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    The thing that makes this so hard is it's such a private addiction. If you're an alcoholic or on drugs eventually others will start to pick up on it, but you can be addicted to porn indefinitely and no one will notice.

    And it's hard to fight because all of us are walking around with tiny devices in our pockets that can access millions of sites in seconds. It's extremely hard to fight. And it's basically FREE (outside of the cost of internet). So I feel like we have so much stacked against us.
     
  8. C12345

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    Yeah and people don't take you seriously if you say you have a porn addiction. Also it takes effort to go get drugs and alcohol, porn is literally like 15 seconds away at anytime. Right now I could look up porn if I wanted to and start jerking in 30 seconds, but I'm not because I'm leaving it behind. The only person that can make you stop watching porn is you.
     
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  9. Camanche1985

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    OF course. That's why I quit. Porn is no bueno.
     

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