Porn induced HOCD

I'm pretty sure "remain on your current medication regime" isn't good advice to someone who is eating out of toilets!

 

LMFAO! Yeah, right!

 

point taken I more meant accidental things- for example a movie with an unexpected love scene, you're sitting on the train you happen to look up and a girl with an incredible ass in yoga pants walks by, that sort of thing...

 

Stop looking for evidence that you're straight and not gay. Seriously. That is the OCD monster and he has you right where he wants you. The underlying fear in HOCD tends to be not knowing your sexuality. Most HOCD sufferers actually say "I wish I was gay because it would make this so much easier". What I found was the best way to do that is actually to just stop thinking about what you're sexuality is. Society makes this hard because we have to be pigeonholed into gay or straight. You could if fact be anywhereS on a whole spectrum between gay and straight or not even on that spectrum at all. In addition, OCD gives you black and white thinking so you can't entertain any other possibility to gay or straight.

The best way to overcome this is to accept that you are something, you don't know what exactly that it at present, but you're not going to worry about it. Every OCD thought you get you have to relabel. Trust me, I've been where you are, that monster is ten feet tall and relentless. When you start you have to scream practically every minute at your OCD monster but with time it gets easier and eventually you'll get to a point where you can just shrug off the OCD monster. My monster is still there but he's not ten feet tall at the moment - more like a fluffy kitten. If someone would have told me nine months ago that I'd be in this stage I wouldn't have believed them - I really did feel pretty hopeless with it. Just lay off the porn and keep relabelling and I promise that it'll get easier.

 

This is sound advice. Since I have been on this journey I realize a little more every day that my need to watch gay P wasn't because I had been warped by too much PMO but because there is actually underlying feeling in that direction. I'm not worrying about it though. I like women too much 'in that way' so I could only ever be bi to be honest but I've let go of how much of me might be gay-oriented within that. I'm actually quite excited by the prospect of finding out more about myself to be honest. The internal revelations are coming thick and fast now and that means recovery is taking place because I have been so numbed up until now. Worrying, guilt and shame bring nothing good to NoFap I have discovered as they just get in the way of progress. Self-awareness is the key.

 

One thing you'll realize as well, when the OCD actually quietens down, is how much of this is P induced. For example, a groinal response because you see a man naked could well be your brain anticipating P. Other than in P, most guys never see other men naked.

 

That makes sense. A great point.

 

This is really well said.

 

@Matty007 if you say you're straight then you're straight. Thats all you need to know. Accept the thoughts and it will go away. I dont believe in the spectrum thing but I respect others opinions. Just be happy and dont let nothing bring you down.

 

Yup Its going great for me @Matty007. It will go great for you too if you just listen to what we say.

 

Learn to ignore it. When you get a weird groinal (Or otherwise) sensation, laugh at it, or calmly note it and move on, or any other manner of belittling it. When you constantly monitor yourself, you're going to react to anything. Plus, the groin registers anxiety, so it's more or less a self fulfilling thing. Once you learn to ignore the feelings, they'll begin to dissipate.

And if you're bi, cool. Imagine only being attracted to 5'3 27 year old women with red hair. Your available pool of potential mates would be tiny. Now imagine that all women and men are potential mates. You've so much more options. And if you are bi, but prefer the idea if living a heterosexual lifestyle, I've got good news: you can! You can learn not to mostly ignore attraction to the same sex, or just have it as a vaguely nice distraction (there isn't a person alive who doesn't notice attractive people outside their relationship).

Not saying you are bi, of course. How could I know? Just saying that if you got to a place where you wouldn't dislike being bi, then you'll have far less to.be anxious about. If the answer isn't very important to you, it's hard to obsess about the question. This is where I'm trying to get to.