Porn Inspired me!

Now let me get this straight I do not support the porn industry in any way. In my opinion the world would be better without it. How ever I'm currently an addict and long story short I've just relapsed. At a point of horny weakness of the body fueled by negative emotions I went through my usual binge of looking pics of porn torrents and downloading the ones I find "good enough". Then casually strolling between what I've downloaded I was shocked. For the first time in my life I've found such profound porn. Now I won't tell you of course the name but all I can say is that it depicted everything I want from a sexual interaction. Both of the actors were very "beautiful" of course and had nearly flawless physique. Their sexual act was very passionate and sensual it looked like both of them are in the zone and enjoyed what they do. There was no objectification of women like in every other porn movie. Even from cinematographic point of view the camera didn't always show the penetration of the penis. Now why I say it inspired me is because even in such amoral industry, which has forsaken most largely accepted human values there could be something "good" (everything very relative). Personally, watching this jewel, it inspired me to resume my training to get even healthier body, pursue building a relationship with women so I could possibly enjoy the experience in the movie with a REAL woman and becoming a porn director. Ok, maybe without the last one Point of this thread is always look on the positive side of your past experiences there's no point delving in to the past banging our heads ooh I suck for doing "this". Here I am again scrubbing my hard drive and rewriting my goals again. Now I have done this many times in the past sometimes with good sometimes with bad results. But I don't care if i relapse dozen more times when there is will thrive I will go stronger with each experience and eventually live a fulfilling life. So stay strong my virtual brothers, we will overcome this addiction 1 step at a time!

 

Hehe, man I already deleted it. The point of the thread was to change you attitude even when you made a mistake in the past. Let's not forget that watching the vid was an act of weakness from my part and act which I would not dare to do in the future since it does not resonate with the man I want to become. However I did watch it and tried to grasp the benefits. Keeping the vid would only make relapse more beacuse of chaser effect and subconscious jealousy of "not getting any". I would agree that I feel more energetic and women seem to notice me more when I don't fap. It may be a placebo effect from this whole community but even as a placebo your body adapts to how your brain feels, therefore if you feel more strong and disciplined by keeping your agreement to yourself to not masturbate, you undoubtfully feel better.

 

Man, I didn't describe the scene itself with great detail. I just said what it looked like to me overall. You don't send an angry message every time you see a triggering add on the street do you? There are temptations all around us in every from we can't hide ourselves from them. But what we can do is be fully aware with our goals and not give in. I made this post because in my opinion is that it has certain wisdom to it. If u can't withstand such mildly triggering content I suggest you stop visiting no and walk blindfolded outside or just man up and not give in.

 

@good looking loser Yeap, I was mad because of relapse, but we got this!