Porn was my escape; now I have nothing.

Over the years, I used to PMO when I felt upset, helpless and depressed. I used p as my bandage but it was one made of thorns which brought more pain in itself.

I've been trying to break my addiction since last year and today I've realised that trying to break the addition through willpower alone only gets me so far. I'm feeling at my lowest this month. It would be at this point where I would look for an escape out of this feeling. I had P before... What do I have now?