Posessed by a devil?

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  1. Share The Pain

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    Im experiencing something really creepy, I feel like someone took my soul or I have 2 or more persons inside me. Im starting lose my memory and who Im. It is super crazy like I was in pscyhosis. I really need to get to the hospital today. What is happening with me guys? :( Did pornaddiction really do something so critical in me that I now lost my place in heaven or am I really that mentally ill? Jesus Christ what is going on with me.. Im so scared. What does this mean? Someone help! I dont know who or what Iam or what I was. I cant explain.. I dont know what or who to blame of this.
     
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  2. Share The Pain

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    I regret so many things In my life Im so scared and disconnected. Why are things like this? What is happening..
     
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  3. engelman

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    Well, I have to tell you ... it's not porn addiction, it's you and your mind. First, you should calm down and relax. Stop overthinking and stop worrying. Whichever problem you have, you're not going to fix it by worrying and overthinking about it. Second, look for a therapist or psychologist (someone who can listen to you without medicating right away)..

    I don't like the using the word "addict", but I've had this problem for almost all my life (more than 30 years) and I also regret many many many things I've done in my life. But things can always and will (almost) always be better when you work on them. Besides, you're 21 yo, I think it's normal feeling totally lost at that age. My "darkest" time was precisely at that same age, so ...

    Upwards and onwards!
     
  4. Randombro

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    You need to go to a hospital today. I´m not a doctor but you sound schizophrenic to me.
     
  5. Share The Pain

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    Yeah. I know it sounds weird. I dont know how to feel.
     
  6. Randombro

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    Look for a doctor before it gets worse
     
  7. Share The Pain

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    Its is nightmare already. So scared, what is going on. Im afraid of future.
     
  8. Share The Pain

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    But I dont hear things, I dont know what is going on with me.
     
  9. DeeJ4y

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    If you believe in Jesus you should know that your sins will be forgiven if you ask for forgiveness.
     
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  10. Scarab Beetle

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    Brother you are not alone. Even I sometimes feel that I have 2 persons living inside of me. The one who wants to help and be kind to all living things and the other who just wants to destroy everything. Its a fine balance you have to make between the two. What I know through my own experience is that you can't actually get rid of anyone of them but you have to be at harmony with them. That comes through acknowledging and accepting who you are and loving yourself.

    Of course porn addiction has a very big factor and making you feel how you are feeling right now and I have no idea how your journey has been but from what you have told me I believe that it has been a very tough ride for you. If you really feel that you are not able to make sense of your identity and have trouble concentrating on doing everyday tasks, you may want to see a doctor or a therapist first. Sometimes, sharing things with others really eases the burden off the mind. I hope you recover well and happy brother
     
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  11. What kind of porn videos did you watch lately?
     
  12. Share The Pain

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    I know. I dont know why I feel so posessed. Maybe God forsaken me?

    I have been trying to quit porn for sometime now, only 2 days without it and already feels like its 2 weeks gone. I have been watching really rough porn including humiliation and sissy fantasies, so Its really no wonder that I will destroy my identity. Im just shocked that wtf is happening with my brains, I have never experienced anything like that, almost felt like having stroke or worse. I need to get to the hospital asap, probaly going tomorrow if I can make it that far.
     
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  13. Share The Pain

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    Just trying to find explanation to this. Im I falling into psychosis or schizophrenia, or something worse. I cant think normally or anything. :(
     
  14. I already thought this.
    These hypno video's are o so devilish.
    You better talk to a pastor with knowledge on this area.
    I am a believer in God and what we need to do to cure ourselves is confession with prayers.
    Porn is not a game. It's a war about our souls.

    If you need to talk more, just send me a message.

    For now try to calm down and please stay away from porn.
    A much better life is waiting for you.
     
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    Thank you and God bless you. Im trying hard to stay away from porn, Im too scared to even masturbate now so wont fail lately. Its hard to calm down becouse I feel horrible all of the time and I cant think about anything else becouse its not just thoughts, its there all of the time. Im so afraid that the feelings will go worse again. Literally felt like losing my soul and going outside of my body and strange shit, inexplicable. Cant believe that porn addiction would be behind all of it but what else? :(
     
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  16. JoeinUSA

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    Real demon possession, which is relatively rare, could only occupy a body; demons can't possess or control a soul or the rational part of the mind. Only God has eminent domain on the soul. What you describe doesn't sound like possession at all. You either need to calm down and control obsessive and paranoid thoughts, or you need to seek medical assistance for this, which is really and very respectfully available. Your disorientations can be treated. You only need to take the step to get the treatment. It's really up to you. It's fully under your control here.
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    You're fine. I know exactly how you feel. I used to watch these same videos. You're not schizophrenic or psychotic. The sissy hypno videos you watched contain subliminal messages designed to make you feel the way you do - they tell you that you're dumb, low iq etc. You're dissociating right now because those videos are designed to traumatize you to create a fetish. Abstain from watching it and let us know how you feel after say two days. I wouldn't recommend going to a hospital. If you still feel really bad I can link you to a video that will remove these subliminals.
     
  18. I know all about that scarcity.
    Sometimes we let ourselves go into something we think it won't harm us.
    But then after we did it, the regret comes.
    I know about that sissy fantasy and the sexual pleasure it gives.
    But I also know how horrible I felt myself after letting myself go.
    It's like we open up ourselves for "no matter what as long as it arouses us". But after the finish
    we feel the dirt that we let in so deeply into our mind and into our soul.

    We need to clean ourselves from that dirt.
    How?
    First of all, stop putting in more dirt.
    We need to talk to others. The good things are always into the real connections.
    We need to fill ourselves with good things:
    Good readings,
    Watching nature movies
    Praying
    Make a walk in a forest, listening to all that bird sounds and feel the wind through our hairs.
    Cuddle your mom, girlfriend or your cat.
    Try to do some exercising
    Be with others, no matter what.
    The fear will decrease if you only step into the shopping mall for a while.

    I wish I could take away your bad feelings, but unfortunately I can't.
    What I can do is inspire you with my words to let you move into the right direction.

    Also check out my journal. I wrote some stuff about sissy fantasies and stuff.
    It may help you to start an own journal where you can write about everything that burdens you.

    You 're not alone in here buddy. Let that gives you a bit of peace
     
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  19. Share The Pain

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    I already have been 2 days without pmo. I seriously need help so I must go hospital, this is fucked up.
     
  20. Randombro

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    Man. You need medical help and this asap. You have serious psychological issues
     
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