Hey y’all, I’ve been struggling big time with faith, hope and pmo during these incredibly difficult and stressful days. It seems like every day gets more difficult to get out of bed. Even now I’m on vacation from work and I can’t find the strength to get out of bed before 2 pm every day. I had big plans, to go riding on my bike and of course out of the blue it won’t start. Something else went wrong on my car so I don’t feel like driving it unless I have to. Not like there’s much to do during a pandemic anyway. I’m lonely as can be. Very few friends and no prospect of a lady friend in sight for several years now. I’m stuck in a 10 day relapse loop and just relapsed last night and again today. I’ve been battling this for 5 years, the last 3 years on Nofap forum. I cant even see the light at the end of the tunnel anymore. It feels like God is seeing how much I can be pressed.