Prayers and encouragement needed and appreciated

For Fapstronauts who are disciples of Christ

  1. Hey y’all, I’ve been struggling big time with faith, hope and pmo during these incredibly difficult and stressful days. It seems like every day gets more difficult to get out of bed. Even now I’m on vacation from work and I can’t find the strength to get out of bed before 2 pm every day. I had big plans, to go riding on my bike and of course out of the blue it won’t start. Something else went wrong on my car so I don’t feel like driving it unless I have to. Not like there’s much to do during a pandemic anyway. I’m lonely as can be. Very few friends and no prospect of a lady friend in sight for several years now. I’m stuck in a 10 day relapse loop and just relapsed last night and again today. I’ve been battling this for 5 years, the last 3 years on Nofap forum. I cant even see the light at the end of the tunnel anymore. It feels like God is seeing how much I can be pressed.
  2. drac16

    drac16 Fapstronaut

    Having an active prayer life helps a lot. It goes a long way when your thoughts are flooded with high thoughts of God.

    I pray that the Lord cures your loneliness and that He helps you fight against the desire for PMO. Amen.
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  3. Joel2_2326

    Joel2_2326 Fapstronaut

    I empathize with you. I was on a good streak, but fell into a spiral of relapses. And I find myself also in a state of apathy. Like you, I find it hard to get out of bed for the worthy stuff of life; yet, even in this state, I find it very easy to find the energy to engage with porn--the poster-child for the unworthy stuff of life. The never-ending relapses, the uncertainty, the feeling of distance from God--all of these things and more--feel as if they are part of a curse. This curse is one of my own making, but Christ is greater. Though I may not feel this reality, and though I find myself wavering in the belief of this reality, Christ remains. My cry is the that of a character from the gospels, the father of a demon-possessed son, who in his desperation confessed, "I believe Lord, but help my unbelief."
    Let me repeat: I believe Lord, please help my unbelief.
    I want to believe with a greater capacity that I currently don't possess.
    My prayer for you and I is that we may experience this greater capacity of belief and a very real and nourishing increase in faith--an increase that will be tangible to us and to those we encounter.
    God be with us. May His face shine upon us, to deliver us from the mire we so regularly turn to.
  4. That was very well written and it spoke to me thank you
  5. I can't say it any better than @Joel2_2326 did above, so I will just second everything he said. Don't despair and don't forget what God has said about you:

    Embrace his identity for you, get forgiveness, and get moving forward. The door to our prison is open; we must only choose to step out of the cage and follow him. Those first few steps may feel excruciating, but they are the steps that truly lead to life. I am praying for you and cheering you on toward a new kind of life in Christ!

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