Eddie25
Fapstronaut
hi everyone, its the first time i got here, joined this community about a month ago since i started my NoFap journey but haven't done anything here. Today is my 35 days without PMO (no O'd conciuously cause my body still exploded sometime during the night and ofc i coundn't do anything bout it). Like many others fellows here i have been masturbating my whole life since i was a young boy (probably 12 to 14) and kept it as a daily habit ever since, during that time i also struggled with bipolar disorder and autonomic nervous system disorders, long story short PMO + depression + health conditions leads me here today with premature ejaculation, why do i know that i have it is because i used to be able to last like 10 to 15 mins back in the day masturbating while watching porn but now adays it's pretty much instant, i have no ED problem but very easy to be triggered by porno, the moment my penis reach full erection i shoot, and ofc as i mentioned i get hard very easy so u guys know how servere it is. I bought a fleshlight hoped to see anything difference but just a few strokes with it then boom, i tried to just put my penis to it and just kept it there without doing anything but i still came after like 10 seconds, even after the refractory period i still ejaculate very fast (its like if its rock hard then it's ejaculate ). It's like its too much for my penis and i can't even imagine with the warmth of a real vagina it must be instant ejaculate T_T. Yes I am a 25 year old virgin male and i have never had any intimate relationship with any girl before, never kissed or holding hands even. I think the main reason of my PE is that i always fear someone showed up and caught me up cause i live with my brother sister and my parents. So somehow i must have trained my brain and penis to just O fast T_T.
I have experienced many benefits out of my 35 days, it feels like i am a complete difference person compare to my past self, everything changes, the way i talk, the way i see things and even the way my brain processes, but its my 35 days and i think things started going downhill. Yesterday i had a mood swing, it happened because i was so lonely, i'm currently unemployed and texted a girl i thought had a crush on me but she didn't text me back. I watched porn a little (like 2 mins), opened 2 vids, took a quick look at them and my head started to feel so dizzy instantly, my heart was pounding like crazy (but no urge to ejaculate which is weird) and then i closed everything off and i felt so disppapointed about myself. I fear that i will relapse, i don't have enough faith to stay strong, the main reason is that i don't even know if this Nofap thing works or not, what if i'm just fooling myself, what if i have damaged my penis so bad with all the excessive stroking days and nights for years and there's nothing i can do to revert it? Please give me some advice, i'm so panic right now
I have experienced many benefits out of my 35 days, it feels like i am a complete difference person compare to my past self, everything changes, the way i talk, the way i see things and even the way my brain processes, but its my 35 days and i think things started going downhill. Yesterday i had a mood swing, it happened because i was so lonely, i'm currently unemployed and texted a girl i thought had a crush on me but she didn't text me back. I watched porn a little (like 2 mins), opened 2 vids, took a quick look at them and my head started to feel so dizzy instantly, my heart was pounding like crazy (but no urge to ejaculate which is weird) and then i closed everything off and i felt so disppapointed about myself. I fear that i will relapse, i don't have enough faith to stay strong, the main reason is that i don't even know if this Nofap thing works or not, what if i'm just fooling myself, what if i have damaged my penis so bad with all the excessive stroking days and nights for years and there's nothing i can do to revert it? Please give me some advice, i'm so panic right now