I have met this girl more than a few times now. It must be about 10 times now and at least 5 proper dates. Last time she was flirting a lot more than on any of the previous dates. We were quite close and I had the chance to kiss her on multiple occasions and I considered it. But for some reason I didnt feel it that day. I was about a week clean back then and even though I know that we have good chemistry I didnt kiss her. I am meeting her again this weekend and the fact that she still wants to meet even when I am as slow like this must mean that she is pretty into me but it wont last forever if I keep second guessing if I should kiss her or not. My streak sucks and I am having a hard time getting out of my brain fog and getting turned on by real girls. She is above average pretty so her looks is nothing to complain about. I am taking vitamines, drinking a lot of water, trying to get some fresh air every day to get my mind in a better shape before meeting her this weekend. I also need to somehow manage to turn myself on around her. I am thinking of kissing her this weekend even if I dont really feel like it. It isnt about her. She is more than good enough. Maybe I should take her up on her offer of going to a spa or a bath. Maybe I need to see some skin to make my brain wake up. I have some ideas. I need to visualize what I think makes her pretty. It shouldnt be too hard. Nothing to say about her body, her smile, humor or way of flirting. It is all pretty sexy. She is somewhat shy but I need to get out of my head and make the moves.