hello ! without further a do, i am very sensible to beauty (i think), however that means that i might be a voyeur (correction i am, and i am in recovery right now)... now and then i see a girl that suits my taste very much, like earlier today in the train, we sat in the same "zone", my brain just switches mode, and it become hard to think about something else, EVEN if i try to do something else... i did read though so it was not that bad, it could be a solution. my brain screams joy when i see a girl that suits my taste, and it's hijacking my attention. IS THAT WRONG ??? WHY write this post ? i am concerned because it's going to be winter, and the leaves are going to fall and i will be able to see my neighbours window again... and i want to keep the blinds open, not disturb her privacy as well. and i don't know what to do about it in general... i feel hopeless... it makes me sad... (should i see a psychologist ?) what should i do about my tendency to get high when i see a beautiful girl ? what should i do ?