Problem with porn! 30 Days Challange!!

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by Stupiscimi!, Jan 11, 2021.

  1. Stupiscimi!

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    Hi guys, i'm here again because i fell again! I started watch porn regulary and i don't want that this happen again!! in the last days i could resist for 14 days without watching porn and i was happy and strenght! But when i fell down i started again and now i'm so sad because i spent a lot of hours watching that shit! This happend when i have anxiety and negative thoughts in general! In particular, i'm preparing exams and i have only 2 days to finish all i must study and do my first exam of this session. I'd like to stay concentrate and finish all my goals but my thought is only on my bad condition and situation! Masturbate myself and watching porn caracterize my life from when i started at 15 age! 10 years till now that my life is ruined for this! i can't go on in this way! I'm thinking that i'm not doing anything in my life that help me go out from this situation (because is my confort zone).. i'm saying lies to my family about my situation and all my friend! i can't stay focus on what i want to do in my life and when this happen i fall again! masturbation and porn are the refuge and escape from the anxiety and this situation that I have created over the years!
    I start again without porn and sex chat because is not the real life! It's not what i'd like to live! I became a procrastinator and i'm so sad when i think about how much time i have lost!!!!!!

    i have pain on my shoulder, my neck, my legs and my chest every day for hours i spent in front of glass of my computer for watching porn.
    i'm eating bad, i'm not doing sport, i'm not happy, i have anxiety and depression every day, i'm becoming close with social life, i have two eye bags because i passed all night in front of porn and i can't sleep! But now is arrived the time to say NO! NO TO PORN! FIGHT AGAINST IT!

    the real problem is my country is in lockdown and i'm obliged to stay home! I'd like to go out for studying at library but it's closed! i'd like to go out to stay in front people but i can't! i'd like to meet and stay with social contact but i can't! it's a bad period for me because i can't express my real me! i'm so sad guys.. i'm so sad.

    I start now again against this addiction! Stay with me! i will update not every day but i will write to inform u about my fight!

    Days without porn: 0 Days.. i start!
     
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  2. bulldawg1970

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    i got ya bro, with you all the way
     
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  3. Stupiscimi!

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  4. bulldawg1970

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    anytime stup, and don't be nervous about posting threads, they are very beneficial to recovery
     
  5. CrimsnBlade

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    You can do it! Recovery is possible for everyone! If you need help, check my signature, there's a lot of good stuff in that thread I linked.
     
  6. Stupiscimi!

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    I decide to do 30 day challange without porn! I need it! I need to see that i will can do it and i will have more energy for studing and pass all my exams! i will quit with porn for this 30 days and then i will try to not masturbating for some days! I'm ready guys! it's necessary for my life and for what i want to do! stay with me in this fight!

    My challange is started at 00.01 am of this day and will finish at 11 Feb!

    Ty for support @CrimsnBlade!!! I will see your thread!
     
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  7. bulldawg1970

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    go get that goal bro, were here
     
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  8. BeezMeUp

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    Good luck dude,i wait for your "I DID IT" thread!
     
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    i usually get up late in the morning! till yesterday i got up at 1 pm every day and i went to sleep at 4 am!
    But now it's time to change and i must get up early every day because it's important staying focus to finish my exams!
    i want to win this challange and i want to be free from porn forever! it's important for me and for living a better life! i need to take this reboot because my mind is full of fog, full of bad and negative thought! i hate this situation!
    This night was bad because i can't sleep very well for negative dreams.. i have anxiety this morning when i got up and i was scary for what i have dream! i hope this night wil be better and whit this reboot i will get up fresh and without bad dreams! Stay with me guys, for the best!
     
  11. Stupiscimi!

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    Hi guys! It's the 3th day without porn! i stayed focused on my goals with exams! tomorrow morning i've exam...
    i'd like to have done more before to prepare this exam! i'm a little worried because i'm afraid to fall down with the test!

    But it's ok i want to finish this session with success and not with regrets!
    It's the same for my challange with porn! i hope to finish exams with the porn challange! so i can stay focus on something and not thinking to porn!
    In next days i will start with sport and walking because i become sedentary and with stress! Go on with strenght!!
    How are u guys? how is it going?
     
  12. bulldawg1970

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    Great jop stup, and I think you will do fine with the exams, just relax a little and try not to over think it. The same can be said with this recovery process, and I am doing good, haven;t even thought of visiting one of the hell cursed sites so all is well.
     
  13. Stupiscimi!

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    Hey guys 7 days are passed!!!! One week without porn is good!! now i will go on till 10 Feb!! The street is long but now it's a good start! i'm focus on my goals and i'm studying avery day!
     
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  14. Stupiscimi!

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    Hi guys!!! How are u?? i'm at 14 day without porn and i'm starting to feel a little better. A little because in this period i'm stressed for studying and exams that i'm doing! But it's ok because now i can stay concentrate on my goals! I don't watch porn and i will not do it again in future! Because it's time to change now and i'm doing it well! this 2021 will be my year even if i must do more than this to stay better with my self, but it's a good start this.
    GO ON TO MY FIRST GOAL: 1 MONTH WITHOUT PORN! I'm strenght than before!
     
  15. Stupiscimi!

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    I went out home for walking! I don't know how much i've been out but when i came home i was a little better.
    At 5.30 pm i started today with yoga for shoulder, neck and back! At the end of practice, i made 15 minutes of meditation with music!

    I'm so relaxed now that my body has pain everywhere! I've pain because for 1 month i've been sitting on a chair without move my body! But it's good because i want change my mind and my body! i want improve my healt with sport!
    Now i want only go sleeping but before i must send my (finished!) project to my professor! i hope it will go well. Today i didn't study because it was necessary that i took some time for myself.
    It's time to change! it's time to take care of my life!
     
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    Today is a good day because i'm facing what happend in these days. Thursday i went to bed and temperature was increase and i had pains everywhere in my body. So i was thinking that was covid. i made test but yesterday the result was negative. So i understood that the problem was caused by STRESS! I was full of stress for preparing exams and project. I made 2 months where everyday i was studying! And it's not good for me. No sport, no walking, no free moment... full concentrate on my studies. But i'm facing that was the worst decision i took.
    Exams went bad! My mind was so tired that refused to go on. I was full of stress and anxiety.

    So i stopped all thing that i must do and i took some time for me. I started drawing and i made only this. i started relaxing days with these. i slept more hours than before (usally 5/6 hours for night) and i started to relax and appreciate how time is important.

    I was concentrate only to do and finish all thing because i want degree this year but i can't do more. i need time.

    I understand that i must organise my daily routine and taking much hour for relax and meditation, for sport and take care of my healt. i want to decrease masturbation (while with porn i'm at 21 days free!) because it's not good for my energy!

    I quitted social network like Instagram and Facebook and i want reduce using phone too.
     
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  17. Stupiscimi!

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    Today

    Study: 1h
    Gym: some exercise. Done.
    Drawing: 3h
    relax: watching tv

    i must start organize better my life
     
  18. Stupiscimi!

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    1 day to the goal! 30 days without porn is wonderful!!! And i want to go on!! I'd like a lot to do one year without porn.
    Yesterday i started no masturbation too. I want fight against my addiction! :emoji_muscle:
     
  19. Stupiscimi!

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    in these days i didn't use Instagram and Facebook and i can feel good!
     
  20. BeezMeUp

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    Good job dude! Keep going as long as you can!
     

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