Hey man, relapsed the last 2 days after a 16 day streak. First time was with P, then I did it another 2 times w/o yesterday. I felt really confident after getting over the PMO, but when I did it last night THAT's when it really hit me. I rationalized about NF, how I have doubts about it and that it's taking up too much of my life, and how I have to start living my life. I literally wrote the same type of stuff a month ago after relapsing. Fool me once, shame on you, fool me twice, shame on me right? Hoping to be aware about this mentality for the future. I've been really looking at this problem since August 1st, and the good thing, despite all of my stumbles, is that I'm still working at it. I think there's a lot more at play than just porn for me, specifically dopamine stuff like that. Deleted my Tinder and Hinge today after creating them again 2 days ago. Found myself constantly thinking about them and always checking them. I tried to convince myself 2 days ago that I needed to start doing that stuff because if I want to actually start dating again...I actually have to start dating. I think this is me wanting the easy way out of instant gratification and trying to reject the delayed gratification struggle that is NoFap. Sometimes I see stuff about HAVING to push through urges, and sometimes I see how that's the worst thing you can do. I hope people stay active on this thread and we help each other, because that's 1 thing I haven't really tried yet, working with other people I guess. I mainly write about it a lot in my journal (online and physical) and work on it with my therapist. I think stressing about 90 days can be a little dangerous too, because the anxiety of that number makes it feel impossible and implants a lot of negative emotions into your head that lead you back to relapse. Sorry if that was kind of a dump, but let's keep pushing through. Flaws and all.