Hey there, new member here. I've been addicted to masturbation for about as long as I can remember. It became a huge source of trouble for me and my girlfriend, and hurt her self esteem quite a lot. My deal was that in High School I grew addicted to masturbating to pictures of girls I knew on social media. I erased my conscience and became addicted to the rush of being able to please myself with pictures of people I knew, and they were none the wiser. This problem grew out of hand once I began dating who I consider to be my soul-mate, someone who is just perfect for me in every way imaginable. She would be hurt and disgusted by the fact that I was doing this, but I had done it for so long and so mindlessly that it wasn't a huge deal for me. Recently, we broke up for a period of time because of my dishonesty in general. Lying to her about stopping that bad habit, which I admittedly did improve on before the split but still found myself occasionally dabbling in, as well as drinking which is a problem for me. She left me for these reasons, and I don't blame her one bit. For the first few weeks of the breakup, I mindlessly took advantage of her absence to indulge myself in pictures of people I knew. However, I am on a proper mission to rectify myself and my low key dishonesty towards those I love as well as my general addiction to masturbation, social media aside, and began to grow increasingly wary of the fact that this was a huge source of friction and contributed to ruining the best relationship I'd ever had. At some point between now and the breakup, roughly about 2 months after, I'd had it. I felt disgusted myself, not just with the social media aspect but just the act in general. It leaves you feeling weak and useless. Depressed. It is simply an addiction to Dopamine, filtered through my biological imperatives. The more I looked at it that way, the less I began to feel the need to constantly please myself. Even masturbating to porn made me feel pathetic. I would go days without fapping and think nothing of it, then break and feel like garbage again. The trend was growing stronger. I want no part in it these days. I haven't masturbated to a picture of a girl I know in well over a month now. However, I recently somehow managed to resume my relationship with this amazing woman who I am so extremely fond of. We have some trust issues, and this is one of them. The social media aspect. The girls I know. How do I prove to my love that I've stopped? She is always thinking in the back of her head that I still do this and hide it from her, but I really have entirely refrained for a while now, and us getting back together has only served to completely solidify this resolve I had growing. How do I prove it? Nothing will satisfy this fear she has, and I don't blame her. It's just so difficult and painful for the both of us. I'm no longer doing it but we both are anxious about something that isn't even happening anymore. Any trust rebuilding suggestions or outside of the box ideas on how to make her believe in what is actually going on?