Putting on a Happy Face

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This weekend is one year since the big discovery. Hubby doesn't remember dates well so he has no idea. Unfortunately, I do. I'm going about the day as usual and putting on my happy face so no one is the wiser, but underneath it all I am consumed with remembering how my world was turned upside down. Today, tomorrow and Tuesday marks the beginning of the absolute worst year of my entire life and marriage. The ironic thing is that Oct 23 used to be a day of celebration. It was the day we met and even though it's been more than 20 years we have always made a big deal out of it. That came to a screeching halt last year. Now the day is shrouded in ugly.

 

[Queen_Of_Hearts_13]

I can relate to your feelings. I found out on the date that I met my husband as well, and a date that I wanted to celebrate and be joyful over seemed to be tainted. Making it one year is a big milestone though, so don't discount that. I remember when it was the year mark for me I felt relieved that we had made it through that year. There were times where things were touch and go, but making it a year, seeing the progress we made, seeing what we still had to do, was relieving in a way.

I hope you can find some comforting things over the next few days to help with the pain. I know that the year mark was very difficult for me because it brought back the pain I'd felt, but also I got to see how far I'd come and felt relieved that I was making progress. It was slow, but it was there. What helped me was seeing the positives each of us made that year and to not discount it just because other things hadn't been accomplished.

 

[Broken81]

Big hugs coming to you today.
Just think, I'm a few weeks into my journey. You, however are an entire year. You are the living hope that this gets easier. I'm sorry you have to relive this awful horrible time but please take a tiny amount of solace in the fact that just by posting this post, you are giving me hope for my future.
*insert giant cyber bear hugs here*
Xx

 

[TryingToHeal]

I'm sorry. I know that "put on a happy face" feeling. It sucks, I can't stand faking it. Sometimes it just seems unbearable. I know that date of finding out as well and it is soon approaching. Not looking forward to it. I hope your week improves.

 

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