Quarantine and nofap

Hey ,perhaps it's the weirdest story you will hear about in nofap so please be patient and give your opinion .
So I actually discovered nofap accidentally ,and my last journey was like for +180 days and it was the best thing I do in my life ,people started to love me for being who I am ,I was all the time motivated ,all the time calm ,but this calmness is not like before ,I was calm because I was thinking a lot ,and I liked that type of thinking ,you just feel you are responsible of what you say ,I know that nofap is basically about +90 and that what most guys do and fall back ,but there are many things you will experience if you do it for more than that .

Okay ,till that period everything was fine and great ,so you know that was in quarantine ,one day I was like having nothing to do ,and my mind like pulled me to the curiosity of what might happen if I just watched something without m ,and you know what P do ,it's just keep attracting you until you can't control yourself and in the last it happened but I didn't want it to happen ,after it happend I felt everything changed for me ,like all my ideas all my thoughts .

I made it up to 82 days and I feel better now ,it's just that I don't feel the same as before ,I'm not intending to relapse anymore like forever ,but I'm just always thinking about when I will get back as I were before ,seriously ,I'm not used to think about it like that ,in fact I'm not used to take it seriously, now I count days and I think about it everyday ,maybe it's cuz of quarantine .

I just don't know what to do now ,any words you want to say may help me and thanks..