Quest to be better

Hello. I joined this community to ultimately be a better husband.

Lately I have been having trouble performing for my husband. I feel awful. I masturbate all the time to porn. And I'm suspicious that this may be related to my inability to have sex. It's to a point that I actually look forward to masturbation more than sex. So weird. In addition, the porn content I'm watching has become more and more outrageous. I also think it's causing me to make some bad decisions in life as well.

Ultimately, I feel like I'm in a bit of a downward spiral. It helped reading through this site because I see that there are other people going through the same thing. And it sounds like it's fixable. And just maybe, a change like this could help me in so many more ways - stronger connection with my husband, better personal decisions, more time for more important things, etc.

So my quest starts now. And hopefully, over the next few weeks, I will have made some progress.

 

Thank you. I really appreciate that.

 

Well, it's day one. I've deleted a lot of things from my phone. Canceled my memberships online. And that's about it right now. Crossing my fingers I can even get through the next few days.