Nurdaulet
Fapstronaut
Hi guys! I want to start my reboot journey.My main trigger is I get bored easily.I like animation shows for children like sponge bob e. t. c
And I love listening to rock music like nirvana or queen. Can I entertain myself with those things while I'm rebooting?
It was first question.
Second question is-is masturabation without porn healthy?.Can I masturbate while I'm rebooting?.(When I masturbate with porn my sexual energy goes away compeletly.But without porn I feel some sexual energy after masturbation).
I don't know why I've never had sex before(virgin) but I have some sex drive.So When I masturbate I do it multiple times because of sex drive.There is no end to to it.(I'm 18 years old).And I'm getting uglier Because of PMO.
And also I did 270 day reboot with quitting sugar and quitting movies and social media.And I relapsed because I felt tortured and my Life was getting darker because of reboot.So I realized that 270 days were not enough for me.
But I can't start again without eating sugar or watching movies.I feel like I'm torturing myself.I can't keep going feels like I'm stuck.If I start reboot with sugar and movies I feel wrong and it's torturing.I'm spiritually stuck.Second reason that I relapsed.I was transferred to another college because I had a grant.So New college was in a new city.On a road our car crashed. It destroyed me emotionally. When we went to college they were so rude and unpleasent with our documents I didn't like it. It was like end of the world to me.After a while we went to dorminitore(I've never been in a dormitory cuz in my old college I was living with my sister).And dormitory is sooo sucked.Windows and doors are so old. Like this city is old.I couldn't live there so I called my folk.He was also a student in this city.And he took me to the apartment.There were other stundets also.We didn't have enough beds.Apartment was soo dirty.It affected me emotionally again.And my folks friends smoked weed.And they said how sex good is that every girl should have sex.They said it's impossible for a girl live without sex.It's also affected me emotionally.(cuz In our culture girl shouldn't have sex before marriage).After that I though that all girls are thots(which they are not)
My life was getting darker and darker.I started watching anime(remember I quit watching everything when I started my reboot).I felt lust which was strange cuz I never had sex.Maybe it's a trigger Idk I was so confused.After a while lying on bed I couldn't take it anymore all that emotional stress in my life.and I just relapsed. Before starting rebooting I've convinced myself that it would my last reboot that I wouldn't watch p or do m again.After a relapse I was done. I couldn't rise again.
And I love listening to rock music like nirvana or queen. Can I entertain myself with those things while I'm rebooting?
It was first question.
Second question is-is masturabation without porn healthy?.Can I masturbate while I'm rebooting?.(When I masturbate with porn my sexual energy goes away compeletly.But without porn I feel some sexual energy after masturbation).
I don't know why I've never had sex before(virgin) but I have some sex drive.So When I masturbate I do it multiple times because of sex drive.There is no end to to it.(I'm 18 years old).And I'm getting uglier Because of PMO.
And also I did 270 day reboot with quitting sugar and quitting movies and social media.And I relapsed because I felt tortured and my Life was getting darker because of reboot.So I realized that 270 days were not enough for me.
But I can't start again without eating sugar or watching movies.I feel like I'm torturing myself.I can't keep going feels like I'm stuck.If I start reboot with sugar and movies I feel wrong and it's torturing.I'm spiritually stuck.Second reason that I relapsed.I was transferred to another college because I had a grant.So New college was in a new city.On a road our car crashed. It destroyed me emotionally. When we went to college they were so rude and unpleasent with our documents I didn't like it. It was like end of the world to me.After a while we went to dorminitore(I've never been in a dormitory cuz in my old college I was living with my sister).And dormitory is sooo sucked.Windows and doors are so old. Like this city is old.I couldn't live there so I called my folk.He was also a student in this city.And he took me to the apartment.There were other stundets also.We didn't have enough beds.Apartment was soo dirty.It affected me emotionally again.And my folks friends smoked weed.And they said how sex good is that every girl should have sex.They said it's impossible for a girl live without sex.It's also affected me emotionally.(cuz In our culture girl shouldn't have sex before marriage).After that I though that all girls are thots(which they are not)
My life was getting darker and darker.I started watching anime(remember I quit watching everything when I started my reboot).I felt lust which was strange cuz I never had sex.Maybe it's a trigger Idk I was so confused.After a while lying on bed I couldn't take it anymore all that emotional stress in my life.and I just relapsed. Before starting rebooting I've convinced myself that it would my last reboot that I wouldn't watch p or do m again.After a relapse I was done. I couldn't rise again.