You're welcome @girlfriendofm you don't deserve any of this, an so doesn't any other woman for that matter. I know everybody has different reasons to do what they do, but in my few days here I am surprised to see very strong and similar patterns that a lot of us fapstronauts develop. My main reason was novelty no questions asked, I would always look for girls who looked very differently from my ex gf, and also different from the last escort. I think I've never been with a girl who looked like her, not even now that I miss her so much. My ex gf is a very beautiful woman, and so were most of the escorts I contacted, still I would get bored and lost interest rather fast, so I needed a new one. The second reason, and maybe equally strong, was the zero chance of rejection, you just need to look for the kind of escort you want, see if she performs the particular kink you're into that day and that's it. I'm not into any fetish that I'm aware of, so most escorts would easily comply with my requests. Knowing that the girl will agree with anything you ask gives you this feeling of power and confidence and I think that's what makes me enjoy the experience, more so than the sex itself. They also pretend to care about what you have to say, kind of like a shrink would, I know it's a dumb comparison but for me it feels similar. I think is the same thing with the camgirls or the other girls he would ask for photos. They listen and do as they're asked, and that feeling is highly addictive.