So I have seen a lot of guys who struggle with porn addiction, and it leads to a lot of problems. For me it was escalation, and I have went deep in the rabbit hole. I became addicted to gay porn at a point but I recovered from porn and I quickly got over that, now I find it disturbing that I ever even watched that genre... it’s been 3 years and if you showed he gay porn now I’ll feel very repulsed and I can’t watch it for more then 5 seconds, and I feel absolutely no arousal thinking or looking at it. My question is why do some people escalate, and others don’t? I have friends who I know pmo 2-3 times a day and there life’s are perfectly normal and they discuss what they watch and joke about it, I used to be like this but once it became a problem I stopped. Why did I get effected by porn and not them? The fact that I escalated in that genre traumatized me and I suffer panic attacks thinking I’m gay sometimes (OCD) just because somehow, for a reason I can’t explain, that shit was arousing to me. I remembered after every time I watched it to pmo I would feel very repulsed by it and never felt attraction to men outside of it.