I have big achievable goals set in time for the next decade or so regarding my blissful freedom. I have my own personal schedule (that I can still improve) structured with alarms on a smartphone which are turned off due to current adjustment on the ringtones for each tasks (I'm putting 20min KJV Dramatized Audio Bible tracks especially Paul's epistle). Internet distraction happens because of my laziness coupled with the force of wireless radiations I guess. Tasks accumulate and I neglect myself, then self-hatred and such develop. Wage slavery consuming the second half of the weekdays, but then mornings wasted by sleeping recovering from insomnia. Poor hygiene, diet, sleep, repercussions on my life (we reap what we sow). Sick and tired of being sick and tired. Despair, contemplating the idea of suicide, internet distraction to escape and numb the pain (actually digging it even more). Disapointment with myself, don't want to waste my youth. Sadness, trapped in laziness, guilt and shame, analysis paralysis, taking my current glory for granted and wasting it away. Mind clutter, fallen present evil world, going against the grain and zombie pathetic lost silly wicked people unfortunately (just to get by in life and to make my dreams come true). Time passing fast, feeling of wasted opportunities gathering in favour of my misery, plus people wanting me to fail to feel good about themselves. Loneliness, malnurrishment, worry and such Sustained by the wifi radiations and harmful lights suppressing melatonin etc.