So i decided to completely stray away from porn and masturbation and so far i'm doing well this time after many relapses. But i find myself all of a sudden freaking out at random times in the day. I freak out if any girls at school were to find out that i watched a lot of fucked up porn during my prime addiction (at my worst). My heart would beat faster and faster and i would completely lose it for a few seconds, getting extremely angry and powerless at the same time. I fear if this addiction wins over me i will never be able to even get a girlfriend, and i would never be able to deal with it. i need some advice.