Rather a news- , than a porn addiction

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  1. uausername

    uausername New Fapstronaut

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    Hey, I'm 21 years old and rather addicted searching for not yet seen porn, rather than plain watching porn for the sake of watching and masturbating.
    I developed a not too usual fetish (but also not a hardly probable, seldom one) in childhood.
    I'm not trying to get rid of it anymore, as focussing on getting rid of results only in focussing on the fetish itself and not changing anything (only being urged to masturbate more, with a worse consciense).
    Also the fetish itself is harmless, not even seen as disgusting.. Just unusual and funny, as the fetish itself didn't raise bad feedback in private yet.
    The main problem is the habit of masturbating via porn to it.
    I already managed to cement in my head, that masturbation itself is unfullfilling and takes some kind of "body-tension" out of my torso, so that I feel physically and socially weaker. (and I've watched most of free porn available already :D)
    The root of still masturbating and watching porn ist the thrive of looking for new porn. Sometimes, this itself takes 90min on bad days and occupies a lot of attention. I even tried c4s since october, which I also "scanned trough" and where I also bought some clips (I found the searching, choosing and buying process more pleasuring, than the clips themselves). Of course, 5 second after orgasm I realize, that this is the biggest waste of time.
    I'm also more independent from this behaviour, when my life is not only consisting of energy-and attention consuming activities. In vacation, I manage to fall back to this behaviour maybe once a week. However, when my day consists of studying, writing on my thesis, preparing unnecessary talks for voluntary language classes and sports, I rather search for porn than doing my duties for one more hour. Also socializing or other "recreational" activities seem to soak attention, so that before getting to work again, I fall back into searching for porn.
    I hope NoFap might pose something like a second conscience as knowing to have to confess masturbation might be more unpleasurable, than the urge that thrives to searching. And also hints from similar already "cleared" problems and support from people, who're in the process of clearing their problem will be certainly supporting
     
  2. Tiger uppercut!

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