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Hello everyone!
I am a 23 years old guy from Italy and i study at university for a master degree.
There's not so much to say about me...and it's neither so beautiful.
I used to live substantially with a very low self esteem since i was very young.
Specifically, i suffered for a severe education by family and society, also i suffered of bullying and marginalization at school and in social life.
The result is that i am living since that times with the convinction that i do not deserve love and affection and it scares me in all second of my life...and i live with the fear (and vulnerability) of people's judgment.
For this reason i am not focused on my studies, i often get isolated by myself (or opposite, i run to beg affection from other people) and i developed by very young (10 years old, believe or not) a dependece from P, M and food.
Yeah i use to eat very, very bad! All day! I am fat and my body sucks!
But now i am so sick about this feelings and this lifestyle!
First of all my biggest wish is to be focused on my studies and be very productive!
After that, i want to feel that i deserve love...good love, i deserve friendship...good friendship, i deserve happiness!
I wish to be relaxed and comfortable between people everyday and everywhere!
I want to be the allied with myself and not to be my enemy!
I have read your posts several times and, let me tell ya...you are so much wonderful!
You have given me the inspiration to begin these journey!
Sometimes i have cried a bit with joy reading your success stories.
I have made several small streak and i have to say that i feel better already at day 3/4 but PM calls and they are very strong...but no more since now, thank to all of you!
I will get it!
Wish me good work, and good work to all of you guys!
God bless all of us!
Thank you for the reading,
Love ya!
I am a 23 years old guy from Italy and i study at university for a master degree.
There's not so much to say about me...and it's neither so beautiful.
I used to live substantially with a very low self esteem since i was very young.
Specifically, i suffered for a severe education by family and society, also i suffered of bullying and marginalization at school and in social life.
The result is that i am living since that times with the convinction that i do not deserve love and affection and it scares me in all second of my life...and i live with the fear (and vulnerability) of people's judgment.
For this reason i am not focused on my studies, i often get isolated by myself (or opposite, i run to beg affection from other people) and i developed by very young (10 years old, believe or not) a dependece from P, M and food.
Yeah i use to eat very, very bad! All day! I am fat and my body sucks!
But now i am so sick about this feelings and this lifestyle!
First of all my biggest wish is to be focused on my studies and be very productive!
After that, i want to feel that i deserve love...good love, i deserve friendship...good friendship, i deserve happiness!
I wish to be relaxed and comfortable between people everyday and everywhere!
I want to be the allied with myself and not to be my enemy!
I have read your posts several times and, let me tell ya...you are so much wonderful!
You have given me the inspiration to begin these journey!
Sometimes i have cried a bit with joy reading your success stories.
I have made several small streak and i have to say that i feel better already at day 3/4 but PM calls and they are very strong...but no more since now, thank to all of you!
I will get it!
Wish me good work, and good work to all of you guys!
God bless all of us!
Thank you for the reading,
Love ya!
