Today marks another day when I relapsed. The feeling of shame and guilt is overpowering and sending me into a spiral of depression. I have been here before, relapsing after 20 weeks of sobriety.
My addiction is acting out, usually with escorts. When looking back on my previous relapses there has always been one constant breakdown, pornography. This is the sole reason that I have been led down this path.
Since a teenager I have been obsessed with pornography. Over time, this obsession has escalated to the point where I always want more. I’m sure there are others on this board that blame pornography for their addictions. The biggest step anyone can take is realising the root cause of your addiction. For me, it has always been pornography. For all of you who feel the same as me, I understand your struggles. Take everyday as an accomplishment. Move forward in small steps and leave your old self behind as you move toward a better life without addiction.
My addiction is acting out, usually with escorts. When looking back on my previous relapses there has always been one constant breakdown, pornography. This is the sole reason that I have been led down this path.
Since a teenager I have been obsessed with pornography. Over time, this obsession has escalated to the point where I always want more. I’m sure there are others on this board that blame pornography for their addictions. The biggest step anyone can take is realising the root cause of your addiction. For me, it has always been pornography. For all of you who feel the same as me, I understand your struggles. Take everyday as an accomplishment. Move forward in small steps and leave your old self behind as you move toward a better life without addiction.
