Shaune
Fapstronaut
I'm typing this post less than an hour after having sex with a stranger. Not for the first time either; not even for the first time this month.
This isn't who I am. Except it is.
I would, for as long as I can remember, have "defined" myself as hypersexual with constant thoughts about sex and a habitual masturbation problem. Problem is. I never acted on those desires. Well. Not with strangers at least and not with random hookups.
I'm sitting in my bedroom and thinking how unsafe I've been the past months. Thinking about all of my actions that would have appalled me a year ago.
What have I turned into.
Yes, I know this is probably post nut clarity and tomorrow morning half, if not all, of the quilt would have dissipated. But, I don't want it to go away.
I need a reminder for myself that this is not the person that I want to be.
How do I keep myself accountable. To myself?
This isn't who I am. Except it is.
I would, for as long as I can remember, have "defined" myself as hypersexual with constant thoughts about sex and a habitual masturbation problem. Problem is. I never acted on those desires. Well. Not with strangers at least and not with random hookups.
I'm sitting in my bedroom and thinking how unsafe I've been the past months. Thinking about all of my actions that would have appalled me a year ago.
What have I turned into.
Yes, I know this is probably post nut clarity and tomorrow morning half, if not all, of the quilt would have dissipated. But, I don't want it to go away.
I need a reminder for myself that this is not the person that I want to be.
How do I keep myself accountable. To myself?