really confused

Hey there,

So I'm more than 2 months of no pmo, edging or really seeking arousal.
Had some wet dreams here and there and after most of them I was wondering if it actually was a dream or if I was conscious and actually relapsed, but it never took long until I realized I didn't mess it up.

Now the confusing part:
This morning I woke up pretty early so I stayed in bed for a bit.I didn't want to fall asleep again, just wanted to relax my eyes but somehow I fell half-asleep (well, at least it didn't feel like fully asleep). Suddenly, without myself forcing or even wanting it to happen, a fantasy popped up in my head. ( !!!!!not sure but, POSSIBLE MILD TRIGGER!!!!!)


It was about me thinking about calling a girl to "release" the pressure, then thinking about the fact that I would not last that long and "apologizing" for it.

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All of a sudden, I felt a strong sensation in my ..dick.. (I don't even think it was hard at all)
and I could feel the orgasm kind of building up. Not sure if in the fantasy or in reality, but I said to myself "oh no, try to stop it!", but it didn't work. After "it" happened, I started to fully wake up, wondering if it was a dream or if I actually fantasized about it and came.
(Note that the fantasy lastet for just about 5 seconds)
After I cleaned up, I kept thinking that I kind of relapsed or if I should count it as a wet dream.
Because of all that doubt I reached a point at which I was ready to fully relapse and PMO. I searched for my "favorite" porn star and was already on a site and saw the thumbnails of her videos for a couple of seconds while sitting/laying in bed. Luckily, just before I wanted to click a video and start to fap, my parents came home and I closed everything. Since then, I keep struggling whether I should fap THIS ONE TIME or not and if just the act of searching for that porn star and "getting ready to relapse" ( as I said without even getting as far as to touch my junk or even getting inside my pants) cpuld possibly have harmed my progress and especially my benefits.

I'm curious what others might think about this whole story and I would appreciate responses.

(Sry if my english sucked at some point, it's not my native language ^^')