Really need some advice...

Firstly, congrats on 20 days that's no easy feat! A lot of threads here state that 90 days is considered a 'full reboot', where your brain will stop having these thoughts and won't have urges as often. You need to realise that your brain is just tricking you to give you that shot of dopamine that come with PMO but you'll feel awful after that. If you relapse, your future self will be desperate to be where you are right now so don't disappont yourself. Stay strong, and good luck!

 

why are you doing nofap? What's your reason?

 

I agree with the above post, you’re brain is being a dick (ironically), its tricking you to convince you to behave in a way that gets you that hit and release. I nearly folded last night and i swear to god it was like i was trying to convince myself it was ago to just do it-even though I’ve set this goal not to! So no it’s not just you, and nothing worthwhile is ever easy, 20 days is awsome pal keep going

 

Agree with everyone here. You brain is trying its hardest to have you follow the pathway to get that dopamine fix. I know personally that it feels like there is nothing that will make it go away and the only way to do it is to give in. This is not true however. You will not die if you don’t give in! If possible I would recommend reaching out to someone to go out and do something productive or active in person.

 

OK. Now you being straight and watching gay porn should be enough to make you stop. Imagine getting caught watching it. Every time you wanna fap imagine your friends catching you watching gay porn.

 

I found personally that I need to stay away from non-porn porn if that makes sense. Girls in bikinis might not be “porn” but I get a little high from it if I want to which usually leads to the torment you’re describing. Best to stay away from that. If it’s incidental whatever, but if you’re looking for it that is not a good idea. At least I’ve noticed that pattern for myself.

However, since the damage is done I think you might just need to meditate to remind yourself that you don’t want to act out and do it over and over till the feeling is gone. Or get out of wherever you’re at and do something with someone.

 

Take it from me, avoid any type of sexual content. It only leads back to porn. Sexy videos on youtube, looking at IG models etc....all these things do is point you towards porn. Cause you will keep wanting more intense content untill you end up full circle at PMO.

 

Could not agree more with this point. And your brain is not going to stop having cravings until you cut out the stimulation for awhile. And this includes the non porn porn. Trust me on this. I’ve been there and done it for a long time. The cravings will get progressively more infrequent with time. But the first month to six weeks is a bitch. But things get much easier as time goes on.

 

Exactly, just keep on moving forward and eliminate the bad stuff. I just classify any sexual media content as porn. If you look at it for the purpose of getting aroused and then you M and O its the same thing as watching the hard stuff. When any such media crosses my path I close or delete it right away. I stopped using IG. I use youtube for educational and motivational content. And when i think i want to see something sexy, I remind myself its the porn addiction talking and scrub those thoughts. Vigilance and self awareness is key. Keep up the fight.