⚠️ Potential trigger warning ⚠️ So I’ve just been talking to my female neighbor, I’m not really attracted to her usally even though she is attractive( she is not my type). I won’t go into detail about what I saw but let’s just say it’s really hot out and she wasn’t wearing much. We also got on really well and it was nice to chat her. Now for the first time in the last 10 days I really want to M, I’m not even really thinking of porn, that would come after. My usual entry back into P is M first. I just have a very strong desire now to M. I really don’t want to so I know where it will lead, I’ve had enough of wasting my life. I’m hoping by posting this I will keep myself accountable.