Really tired of being alone

It's been a while since I've made an entry. The first topic that caught my eye is this. Precisely what I am feeling. Even waking up everyday feels like a chore, the feeling of dread when heading to work and having to force yourself to put up a front at work, before returning to your depressed self after work. I think many people are feeling the same way as I am, somehow I don't understand why so many people are going through such a situation. What if all the depressed people come together and make friends? Sometimes I can't help, but think what would happen if it happens.

Looking back at this week, it was bad. Masturbated to porn since Wednesday. I believe I know the root cause of my problem, but somehow I just can't face it head on. Beats me. Really. Didn't even keep up to my usual exercise routine. As time passes, it just get worse.

But there is still some strength and part of me, that is fighting like many others out there. Hope this week will be better. If you are reading this, have faith and keep on going. Keep moving forward brothers. Cheers.

 

I heard on the news recently that 70% of students struggle with loneliness. Thats 70% of young people who should be out partying and getting laid. I guess we can just assume that 2 out of every 3 people you meet are feeling just as bad as you do so why not make friends? Humans have evolved to be social and if we isolate ourselves we start getting sick.

 

Congratulations on your achievements so far!
It sounds like you are accepting how you feel but not allowing it to control what you do which is encouraging.
The day that I can say I have what I think would make me happy, might never arrive. So instead of putting off happiness till then, I'm going to be happy today and see what happens

 

Yeah dude, All I can say is hold on and stay strong, keep that strength and stay positive, Focus on the good things and you'll start to notice them more often. and try being happy now like Dave said(I can't believe I'm saying this, and I should probably take my own advice more often, but), I reccomend literally just saying to yourself aloud I am Happy! I am Happy!!
Convincing yourself you are happy and staying positive and doing mood boosting things is helpful for your state of mind, I think.
Also for Loneliness and Isolation, I found that becoming a new and active member in this community has helped me to be more open and integrated and feel less lonely, as I used to be a lot. Or just making a friend with someone, or making real relationships more meaningful than the less important things.

I don't know your circumstances Bro, but I hope you can overcome them and achieve your goals or simply come out the other side, stay sharp, stay positive, Remember the most important thing, and you can pull through.
Good luck.

 

Occasionally I will come back and make an entry. Glad to see so many people in the online community trying to make a difference in their lives. Maybe taking our own advice (that we give others) is what we should do. Perhaps doing it is difficult because it acknowledges the fact and fear that we indeed have a problem. Loneliness is something that I (and many others in the world) deal with every single day, and the society that we live in doesn't make it any better. Competitive workforce, high cost of living and social norms that you don't associate with, the list of problems goes on...

However, this tells us not to be affected by the things around us. because things will always change. likewise, our character, inner self and energy can also change, depending on how we react. positively or negatively. law of attraction.

Right now, I feel robotic and drained emotionally. even though i exercise every week, talk to people, colleagues, family and work. things may seem rosy on the outside. but on the inside, i feel i am eaten up by something. perhaps just today, i will tell myself to feel happy, even if it is for a short while.

 

I don't expect that what i will type will help you, only you can do that.

I have the same thoughts that you have. I feel rejected. Lonely. Wanted to end my life too.

That's a thing we face when we become adults, learning to be on your own. I remeber feeling these loneliness, the moments that it hurted most, was when my parents got divorced, when i as rejected by the girl i loved, and when all my friends get away from me beacuse they thought i was insane.

So i got really lonely, and stayed dope will all kinds of addiction.
Only when i got a spiritual experience that i realized that i have never been alone. God, my parents and the people that liked me were always with me. I was ignoring that to keep myself in the pain mode.

Remember that in your life, there are people who would easily die to let you live. I don't know who you are, but i can assure that.

If you want to end that, take a look at yourself and think about your emotions and how we are easily influenced by them. Most of people are. That's why people do the atrocities we see everyday.

Dont wanna make you a religious guy, but take a look at the life of Siddharta Gautama. We faced that and emerged victorious. We can be like him, but the journey must be made by ourselves.

 

Thanks for sharing.

Actually (from introspection), my situation isn't that bad to the point of suicidal thoughts. But rather the lack of emotions, robotic expression and inability to accept others into my life. I have struggled with this since 2014 (university days) until I started working since 2018 (entered workforce). My boss said I am an very hardworking guy, but lacks leadership appeal and interpersonal skills (which I am trying to work on but its difficult). It is because I intentionally numb myself of the pain of loneliness by working long hours. I am unable to date anyone (never dated before) because I have so many extreme thoughts in my head at times (what ifs in short).

I am quite convinced by the benefits of nofap because I've tried it myself (stronger voice, lesser anxiety, more 'full' feeling, more energy and focus, lesser brain fog etc). The longest I went was 60+ days before I relapsed. And ever since I have never gone more than 7 days for 4+ years. It really sucks, but pornography is really one hell of a addiction to break from with all the problems going on.

Just wondering if anyone has similar thoughts and kindly provide your opinion/suggestions how to break pass this mental barrier.

Cheers.

 

Hi my friend. I still in this sitiuation been there. well ti sucks yes.

COnsider though being witha eprson today might not always be so great. u can get fucked up!

I know its our nature 2 get a mate. etc.

Well.. try eckhart toller pwoer of now. and also get used 2 pain.

cheers

 

i meet horrible people and im alone and its better tbh cause with my luck so far people i met only tried to use me. good rifddance.

 

you are boviusly not good looking buddy boyo. its over for us