Reboot after going to a Swingers Club

LAST night upon coming home from work. I was bored, lonely and full of energy. This may not come as a surprise is when people can get urges big time — as I did myself.

Instead of doing PMO. I decided to go to a swingers club instead. Which did satisfy my urges with the action I got. But that’s not really the point.

Even though I had sex. I somewhat, felt rather empty afterwards. It dawned on me that sex should involve more in the way of love and intimacy on an emotional level. Something that you generally don’t get at a swingers club. I only went because I was also desperate and craved sexual gratification. An itch that needed scratching, as ashamed as I am in admitting this.

I was nearly three weeks into my reboot. As far as I’m concerned that this was a relapse. But I take this as an opportunity for me to learn and move on from this. Building an attraction — and forming a connection — with someone, should not just be from physical contact, but also on an emotional level too.

It wasn’t just sex I’ve been yearning for — even though I had it. But also love and intimacy (from another person).

Now, in the aftermath of last night. I decided to pick myself up again. Get up early, have breakfast, go out cycling, have my cold shower. Then concentrate on making self improvements in my life to keep me busy, preoccupied, and get on track.

 

That’s a vow I’ve made