Rebooting for the love of my life.

To summarise, I'm on day 3. I recently became aware of my wanking habit when I caught myself masturbating over an instagram photo of a girl I once had a fling with. You may argue I am crazy but I actually told me girlfriend. Partly as an attempt to give myself the wake up call I really needed. Partly because if I am to be with her I want a sincere and honest relationship where I can share everything.

My girl was obviously devestated. Questioning why she isn't enough and her own beauty. She is may I add the most attractive girl in the world. But I hope my sincerety and new character will prevail.

I have blue balls. I've been trying to avoid touching myself period, but I can't resist groping myself when I feel aroused. I hope this doesn't count as masturbating.

Today at 5pm, instead of wanking, I got the sudden urge, to drive 15 minutes to the train station, train 2 hours to Gatwick airport and fly 3 hours to Madrid to see my girlfriend. I should make it to Madrid for 11:55pm. Not bad for a sudden urge. I hope this is some sort of forecast of the good intentions yet to come.

 

Rebooting in a relationship. Warning, O discussed.

Day 5. Woke up with usual urge to fondle. Managed so far to resist by paying a visit to nofap, hence why I've decided to write an update.

Day 4 was more interesting. One day 3 I took a crazy decision to fly last minute to Madrid to see my girl. It went a lot better than expected. After confessing my addiction to her, I wasn't sure how a surprise visit would go. But she clearly seemed taken a back by my crazy efforts to go and see her. We ended up kissing in a bar early morning before moving to my rental car. What followed was incredible. I won't detail here for risk of setting you off. Due to timing I didn't actually O though. In the morning she had work, so we journeyed to the mall together. Spurred on by our passions of the night before we found ourselves in the disabled toilets. I found O! And it was incredible. What more because I realised I spent the entire time transfixed on her. 4 days without pm and am I already starting to notice a difference in myself?

In a way I am glad I O. Because otherwise the pain of blue balls and coming back to the UK to continue with pm seemed unbearable. However, due to my long distance relationship, resisting O as well should be easier. I really want to feel the full effects of this challenge, and I shouldnt see my girl for a few weeks now. If pm is going well I may suggest avoiding O to her as well.

Keep up your good work guys. I think I am already started to notice the benefits of resisting pm on day 4!

 

Day 6 was hard. My beautiful, long distance girlfriend sent be a surprise sexy photo of herself. 6 days without masturbation was huge for me, but I was beginning to feel pretty horny. Avoiding touching myself was becoming very tricky, and her photo very nearly sent me over the edge.

I told my girlfriend, I was dying to masturbate over the photo she sent me. This had a counterproductive effect. My girl began to panic, thinking that her photo might tempt me into a downward spiral where I looked at porn again. I don't feel this is the case. I am dying for her, but I've not felt tempted at all by porn. I hope this is a positive effect. Anyway, I avoided masturbation and I'm now on day 10. I'm literally craving her body. I've fondled myself a few times thinking about her, but have managed to avoid masturbation. I think being with her again will be incredible. I hope this effect is a good one. My attention has certainly turned very much to her.