Rebooting with a 90 day commitment!

Hi guys,

I'm new here. Just made my intro post on the Newbie forum and am now writing out my commitment here. It's definitely time to reboot, so my commitment is complete abstinence from Porn for 90 days. I know I can do this.... I've done this before so I can do it again. As far a masturbation goes... I will use the next 90 days to develope a more healthy relationship with it, so that it is more healthy and less destructive.

I look forward to seeing how the journey unfolds.

Oz

 

Thanks for the responses guys... I hear you on the Masturbation front! Thinking back, all of the times I have managed long periods free of porn, masturbation has always been the thing that has re-opened the door. With this in mind, I am happy to add abstaining from masturbation to my 90 day commitment because only good things can happen as a result of this!

Oz

 

Well those are definitely a few things that I look forward to!

I was just reading up about the different levels of commitment Fapstronauts choose. I like the clarity and directness that I am seeing here! I am not doing Hard Mode. I am in a relationship and enjoy intimacy with my wife, and expect I will enjoy it even more over the next 90 days.

I like the thing about edging! That has always been a thing for me in the past, a grey area that I have never been very certain about.... although somewhere inside I think I knew the reality of it! In the 12 steps fellowship they have a saying "If you don't want to slip, don't go where it's slippery!" With my commitment to stay porn and masturbation free for 90 days firmly made, and with no edging allowed, I am standing on solid ground! Feels good.

 

All going well so far. Feeling urges, and letting them pass. My thoughts are not instructions and, even if they appear as such, I don't have to follow or act on them. Only 3 days in to my 90 day commitment and sobriety is already a wonderful thing. When I am in this place I wonder how it is ever possible to return to that dark place that is so needy and shameful, and I know that in the past I have returned to porn. Will this time be different? It feels like it, but the truth is that, in all honesty, I do not know. There is no defeat in that statement, it's just plain honest from someone who has been around the block long enough to know that nothing should be taken for granted. Progress, not perfection..... one day at a time.

 

Another good day today. I've been here before in the initial euphoria that comes with a commitment like this. I feel strong, clear, and in touch with my purpose and direction in life. I know the urges, rationalisation tricks of my mind, the "might as well as a reward", and all of those things, are in the post. I dont' feel them yet, but they are one their way. Right now I enojy the calm before the storm.

 

Day 6.... all going well. Having mini urges, but generally remaining connected to the bigger picture as to why I am doing this! In his brilliant book 'Think and Grow Rich', Napoleon Hill talk about the importance of mastering your sexual desire and how this is a key step in mastering your life. I am so deeply in touch with this right now! The price I have paid for those moments of self-pleasure has been a high one. It has been in the form of a higher level of mediocrity and a disconnect from my purpose that has been painful to say the least. Onward to mastery!

 

I'm wondering if I should start a journal....? It seems that this is how I have started using this reboot thread. I will consider over the next days what action to take regarding this. Day 7 and all going well. Very little happening in the way of urges today

 

hey hey hey hey what? Is that a greeting in Cape Town? If so, thanks and welcome

 

All good today. Really connecting with the bigger picture of why I am doing this. This is not simply about stopping a behaviour. This is about my potential in life. I am soooooo much more clear and effective in everything I do when I abstain from porn and masturbation, and this makes all the difference in my life.

8 days in and going strong!

 

Thanks Goa man! I just checked in because I am feeling the urge pretty strongly right now. Out of nowhere it has appeared and I wanted to remind myself of my commitment. I'm glad I checked in because I am no reconnected to the big picture of why I am here. When I am in the grips of an urge I loose that big picture. I loose track of what this is all about and it is in these times of vulnerability where, in the past, I have slipped up. This won't happen today! You can bet your house on that

 

OK.... went off track! Have re-set my timer and am back on it. Masturbation is the killer for me. It's always the way that the habit of porn finds a way in. Give porn an inch and it will take a mile.... I'm a slow learner on this one.... perhaps it will really sink in one day.