Reboots work for my computer, let's see how it does for me

I got nothing to lose. All these success stories make it sound like you turn into God's gift to women, so I may be a little skeptical.

I'm 28, a virgin, and VERY sexually frustrated. Porn doesn't help, but it's been a crutch. I only use it to M and O, like 10-15 minutes tops, once a day to get my jollies. The rest of the time I don't think about it or use it. I'd still consider that an addiction, but not one that's impeded on my life besides the restructure of the hardware in my brain these past 15yrs I've been looking at it or whatever.

I never feel "guilty" after PMO. I don't necessarily feel "rejuvenated" or "renewed" either. I'm just sick and tired of looking at a damn screen and using Pamela Handerson to comfort me. I should be in a real relationship at my age, for God's sakes! I got a whole host of other issues that are wrong with me that put me in bad favor of getting a decent relationship to begin with, I can at least fix one of them.

I can talk to females, I can flirt, but the second you bring up making a move or trying to pursue something, that's when I'll be hiding in my basement cave of self-loathing and digital titty fantasies. I have mental health problems, past substance abuse issues and other shit that just makes me the cream of the crop for potential partners.

I quit masturbating once, when I was like 19. I just started college and started smoking A LOT of weed and didn't touch myself for over a month. I didn't have any wet dreams and ended up developing a fluid filled cyst above my right testicle that would come and go for a few years. I always convinced myself it was because I stopped using the pipes, but I don't know what the reason is. My testicle issues are fine nowadays, maybe just late puberty or something.

About a year ago I went about a week cause I was out of town and didn't have any devices or privacy to use and it wasn't really that hard (no pun intended). It'll probably be more tough with access to everything though. I just cleared my browser history and deleted all files off my computer. I don't have a goal right now, but rather just take it a day at a time. Just like in AA meetings, the only guarantee you have is today.

I just quit smoking last week too, might as well tackle everything at once. If anyone has any advice or suggestions, I'm open to them. Like I said, I'm not expecting much, and to be honest my self-esteem is so shot that I kind of expect to be single the rest of my life anyways, with or without being addicted to porn. I have issues, plus I'm pretty damn ugly.