Recovery from dreams of an odd fetish from childhood

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MerilyJerilyRigged

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It is unusual, it is unnerving, but I’m not sure how unprecedented it is. As long as I can remember, from a wee child I’ve had a Vore fetish (don’t bother looking it up) and I have never found a way to decouple it from my thoughts. I’ve been for weeks now getting my streak down to once a week, but the thing that trips me up is this fetish. If I ever think of it, my mind feels physically like the thoughts are moving through sludge, and it’s all I can think about, I have gotten to the point that I can resist if I have strong imagery thrust into my view or conjured from the recesses of my mind (the mind can formulate things more to your taste than anything you could ever browse for) but if I do, there goes the rest of the day spent fighting it. The part that becomes the real problem is that I’ve been having strong dreams about it almost daily for the last week or two, so the things I want to accomplish are this:

  1. Stop dreaming about it
  2. Make these ancient urges either gone or manageable
I would appreciate anything from the most obvious helps to the most chosen of methods to Excalibur these begrudging swords of addiction. Thank you

TL;DR - I have a fetish from childhood that still clouds my thoughts today and now I’m dreaming of it, HELP.
 
Hang in there and it should pass … eventually.
I have some pretty intense fetishes. My brain is addicted to the dopamine of looking at porn and the pleasures of masturbation. When I stop doing those things, my addiction starts scrambling for ways to get high … and one of the best ways to do that is with fantasies of your most intense fetish, especially when you’re half asleep.
Cant tell you how many times I have suffered intense arousal and cravings in the middle of the night while only half awake and in those moments I’m absolutely convinced that I will engage the fetish … but the next day it’s just another damn day and all that really happens I’m a guy who slept like shit.
 
The weird fetishes will cease to exist eventually. You just have to keep in mind that it's going to take your brain some time to rewire, and it's not going to happen overnight. Most of the extreme fetishes I used to have are gone now, and when I think back on them now, I'm appalled and disgusted. From time to time, I will get a semi-pleasurable thought pop into my head of a fetish that I used to have, but it's so easy to flick it away now and continue on with my day. I promise that things will get better in time with enough persistence.
 
childhood trauma of some sort is a common origin of porn dependence I think
it started back then for me, at a young tender age....
I am still struggling at age 51, but not giving up the fight!
I have made MAJOR changes in my life and you may have to as well to overcome this....
 
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