So I am going good with no P. But I am not seeing the benefits so many describe as yet just over 30 odd days in. I am not sure how much it us the cloud of the pain of separation from my wife. I have moved into a room near the family home in the home of being close to and seeing the kids. Tonight I am worried for a relapse. I have to go back to this place I am sharing with a guy who is nice enough but he is going to be there with his girlfriend tonight. I am having to leave the dog with my dad as it feels too much to bring her there. Yesterday my wife got very angry and told me how she feels about me, how she just wants to be free of me and she refuses to discuss anything to the point she does not want me coming over at all now. She days I act entitled but that I am not worth talking to her, I get the anger but why does she need to make this hurt so much. Does she not feel any love for me anymore. I am mostly worried what this isolation is going to do. I know I need to be strong for me but the rejection of not being good enough for her keeps coming back again and again and feels worse at night. I so much want to be a success story and I believe I can do it, it is the negative things she says about me, the way she has done this and seems to want to completely disown me which are causing the loss of self worth while she just seems to get stronger. I just need some support on here. Someone to tell me that I can do this, whatever she says about me that am worth my own love for myself and the past can be changed, that I can be believed in. Thank you.