Regret of feeling lyk pervert

I never thought in my life porn will damage that much. Every moment I'm suffering from pain of guilt and regret why I denied this and harm my physical and mental health.
I never imagined that I will think like a pervert and porn can damage that much.
Looking older,dull face, less energy sometime blackout when I walk.
Having erectile dysfunction in early age wet dream.
Iiving a life of hell but this time I will not do and complete my mission cuz I can't live a life of pervert anymore rather I will accept all pain and make myself stronger.

 

Disgusting one time my mind telling me don't do it's not gud now saying one more time you can do after that no...
WTF is this I never imagined that one day I have to fight with myself