So there I was...12 days clean... at the top of the world. Asked out a crush to prom, everything went great, even bought condoms since I was thinking about going back to her place. She calls me a couple of hours later (original plan was for her to call me, we go out and chill) and tells me she's happy with everything I did and is still going to prom with me... But lets me know that this is only a friend relationship (in a completely nice way) to prevent me from getting hurt. This hit me hard... I haven't faced rejection this bad in a while... I wasn't ready. I finally exposed my feelings again and was rejected once again. So I found the most reasonable way to get over it was to relapse. I'm a 19 decent looking guy and very talented (play sax and do acting). I was bullied as a kid and because of this I have low self confidence. I find porn as a drug to make me forget about all of this and rejection. I've gone from the top of the world back to the pits of hell. I need help and advice. I feel as if I'll never find a girl. Help me. I don't want to keep going back to porn.